he burst my bubble but the truth was, you were never like that anyway.
i dined at KFC with pearlyn, abbie, PT, vivian & junjie today, after the council meeting. i feel kind of nauseous after eating those cheese toritas. like URGH. and we gossiped a little to inject some panache into our lives, haha. abbie keep trying to fissure the pimple in his nose; it was totally disgusting but i knew it hurt a lot so i kept trying to tell him to stop it. but right now, im not really cheery-haha so can't think of much cheery-haha stuff to write about. and you know, i gotten new renaissance information recently, from a RELIABLE source. and i am flabbergasted and bewildered by some of these topsecret things that people keep in the deepest darkest recesses of their hearts. you would never have guessed.
today an agency called, and said that i was selected for some job attactment thing for potential manpower in their team, and it was about nanotechnology or someth? i cldnt catch what he said earlier but i heard nanotechnology so it's definitely science. but the weird thing was, he didnt even know where i was studying and what age i was? he said he wanted to CONFIRM some things but he just asked questions, like that is confirming? the poor guy wasn't even pronouncing my name properly. sounds fishy? what's even fishier is that I AM AN ARTS STUDENT. I don't take science. I mean, shouldn't you do background checks on your potential manpower before you actually call to interview them? I am flattered that before I have any job experience or even gone into university, a company has already called to hire me BUT this is too fishy. wayyy too fishy. so I'm not going for the 'interview' tomorrow. LIEK HOW THE HELL DID YOU EVEN GET MY NUMBER? weirded out.
you know, someth is bothering me. and everytime someone tells me someth about you, it just keeps getting worse. like you were never like that, never who you TRIED to be. and this illusion i have of who you were or are or werent or whatever, its getting screwed. really screwed. and i think, that maybe, i dont love you anymore.
i wish you would tell me things, but you chose not to, so that's that. but you can't say, that i didnt try.
because you're so vague and so unnoticed, and so like you wish you'd crawl into a hole and disappear kind of thing, and whereever you are, why do you give off that kind of vibe? maybe that's why i cant get into that head of yours. and i missed you most when you were gone.
you're so. unpredictable. and im so tired of trying, because what's the point anyway?
I LOST MY PHONE YESTERDAY!! BUT SOMEONE FOUND IT AND CALLED MY HOUSE!! OMGOMGTHANKYOUSOMUCH!!!!!~ MUCHLOVE! There is a God up there.
ANYWAYS, I MISSED THE 27TH SO MCUH!!!!! I realised HOW MUCH when I saw Abdillah yesterday. I SCREAMED. I LITERALLY SCREAMED.! I miss his bitch-ness so much! And the stories.. were great. 'Cept for some . AND TIEWCHINGWEI! AND JEAN! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD Haven't seen much of the others yetttttt so haven't screamed that much, hahahas. because i was bloody hell trying to look for my phone so i was late....
OMG. I SHOULD BE IN SCHOOL NOW. WTH AM I DOING AT HOME?
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. stop procrasinating!!!
because i missed you so. and i would stop lying to myself, the extent of the "miss yous" i've stored in my phone, is proof enough that your absence was not nothing to me.
i just went to friendster and huilan's account and read weiwen's comment to her. i don't know why but i laughed out. OMG I SO NEEDED THAT. :DDDD can't explain why its funny but it is so i guess i should thank aaron aka Ke WeiWen for making me laugh, indirectly? :D maybe it's because it made me think about OLD DAYS. nostalgia!~
dont let me down.
all i know is, im not asking for anything. all i want is to have a little bit of your world, is that too much to ask? I really wonder, if this is really impossible. This storm isn't passing; I know it isn't. It's here to stay, like it or not. If I could make you tell me everyth about yourself, I would, I should, I just want to, you know? I'm sorry, Im just a little tired today, Maybe that's why Im rambling. Like how I did before.
I NEVER REALISED HOW MUCH I LIKE LIKE PEARLYN TAN YING. platonically. Because I told her that I'd really miss her when she leaves for Yunnan, and I rarely tell people that I would miss them. She's noisy, she's loud, she's everything that I'm not, but she's really SWEET and she brightens up my day when I need it the most, and no matter what, she has never failed to listen to my rambles. I would really like to thank her for all the effort she put in to listen to me, no matter how rubbishshitty they were, and for being more than a councillor, for being a geunine friend, for comforting me, for YOU-KNOW-WHAT and too many. <3>its not fair. it really isn't. But since when has Life been fair? Afterall, God puts us where we are, so Im content~ Im resigned to it, Im not blaming anyone or anything. This is what it was meant to be and how it has to be. it's too late to whine, so never mind. (:
I don't want to see you hurt anymore than you should, so it's okay, whatever it is, let me take it all. Because you know, I'd do anything for you, right now. I won't die or anything but this is really really .. It's too fast, for me to hold on to reality, to hold on to something real, before I fall too fast without a hand to save me. I can do this.
I guess Im too tied up over things, but I can't get it out of my mind. It's so trivial but I guess Im super affected by it. Yes, I know Im way too sensitive.
Im so troubled. Like, I don't know what Im doing again, anymore. I think the results are getting to me. I kinda rmb CK irritating me about my results once and Charleston told him off, to stop rubbing salt into my wounds. Somehow, right now, Im kinda grateful to Charleston. But then, haha, of all people! HAHA. Neeeeemind. I really wanted to wrangle CK's neck today. OMGVIOLENCE.
just shutup and drive.
I haven't finished the camp booklet. OMG, YUANSHENG IS GOING TO KILL ME. :( i think i suck. really. im kinda going through the motion of Life, being dazed over everyth and too distracted to think straight. I thought I was so over that but apparently not. SIGH. Yeah, we're living in a screwed-up world. But I guess we've gotta have Faith because You will lead the way. He works in ways we cannot see.
I think its scary thinking about how this place is going to CHANGE. Like major. Just looking at the new MRT map, just gives me the shivers. When is change going to stop?
(If I had a choice on how my life will be, I want to travel with someone I love,
and take photographs of the myriad and the pretty, spreading the love of Christ,
near and far until the ends of the world!)
I ♥ God and God ♥ me!
Contrary to popular belief, I'm not unfriendly!!!!!!
Talk to me and I'd definitely talk to you.
Most people don't really get me but I usually get most people.
Economics is beyond fascinating. ;)
x
Family is ♥!
Best friends are ♥!
Colours are ♥!
The universe is ♥!
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12 September 2007
he burst my bubble but the truth was, you were never like that anyway.
i dined at KFC with pearlyn, abbie, PT, vivian & junjie today, after the council meeting. i feel kind of nauseous after eating those cheese toritas. like URGH. and we gossiped a little to inject some panache into our lives, haha. abbie keep trying to fissure the pimple in his nose; it was totally disgusting but i knew it hurt a lot so i kept trying to tell him to stop it. but right now, im not really cheery-haha so can't think of much cheery-haha stuff to write about. and you know, i gotten new renaissance information recently, from a RELIABLE source. and i am flabbergasted and bewildered by some of these topsecret things that people keep in the deepest darkest recesses of their hearts. you would never have guessed.
today an agency called, and said that i was selected for some job attactment thing for potential manpower in their team, and it was about nanotechnology or someth? i cldnt catch what he said earlier but i heard nanotechnology so it's definitely science. but the weird thing was, he didnt even know where i was studying and what age i was? he said he wanted to CONFIRM some things but he just asked questions, like that is confirming? the poor guy wasn't even pronouncing my name properly. sounds fishy? what's even fishier is that I AM AN ARTS STUDENT. I don't take science. I mean, shouldn't you do background checks on your potential manpower before you actually call to interview them? I am flattered that before I have any job experience or even gone into university, a company has already called to hire me BUT this is too fishy. wayyy too fishy. so I'm not going for the 'interview' tomorrow. LIEK HOW THE HELL DID YOU EVEN GET MY NUMBER? weirded out.
you know, someth is bothering me. and everytime someone tells me someth about you, it just keeps getting worse. like you were never like that, never who you TRIED to be. and this illusion i have of who you were or are or werent or whatever, its getting screwed. really screwed. and i think, that maybe, i dont love you anymore.
i wish you would tell me things, but you chose not to, so that's that. but you can't say, that i didnt try.
because you're so vague and so unnoticed, and so like you wish you'd crawl into a hole and disappear kind of thing, and whereever you are, why do you give off that kind of vibe? maybe that's why i cant get into that head of yours. and i missed you most when you were gone.
you're so. unpredictable. and im so tired of trying, because what's the point anyway?
I LOST MY PHONE YESTERDAY!! BUT SOMEONE FOUND IT AND CALLED MY HOUSE!! OMGOMGTHANKYOUSOMUCH!!!!!~ MUCHLOVE! There is a God up there.
ANYWAYS, I MISSED THE 27TH SO MCUH!!!!! I realised HOW MUCH when I saw Abdillah yesterday. I SCREAMED. I LITERALLY SCREAMED.! I miss his bitch-ness so much! And the stories.. were great. 'Cept for some . AND TIEWCHINGWEI! AND JEAN! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD Haven't seen much of the others yetttttt so haven't screamed that much, hahahas. because i was bloody hell trying to look for my phone so i was late....
OMG. I SHOULD BE IN SCHOOL NOW. WTH AM I DOING AT HOME?
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. stop procrasinating!!!
because i missed you so. and i would stop lying to myself, the extent of the "miss yous" i've stored in my phone, is proof enough that your absence was not nothing to me.
i just went to friendster and huilan's account and read weiwen's comment to her. i don't know why but i laughed out. OMG I SO NEEDED THAT. :DDDD can't explain why its funny but it is so i guess i should thank aaron aka Ke WeiWen for making me laugh, indirectly? :D maybe it's because it made me think about OLD DAYS. nostalgia!~
dont let me down.
all i know is, im not asking for anything. all i want is to have a little bit of your world, is that too much to ask? I really wonder, if this is really impossible. This storm isn't passing; I know it isn't. It's here to stay, like it or not. If I could make you tell me everyth about yourself, I would, I should, I just want to, you know? I'm sorry, Im just a little tired today, Maybe that's why Im rambling. Like how I did before.
I NEVER REALISED HOW MUCH I LIKE LIKE PEARLYN TAN YING. platonically. Because I told her that I'd really miss her when she leaves for Yunnan, and I rarely tell people that I would miss them. She's noisy, she's loud, she's everything that I'm not, but she's really SWEET and she brightens up my day when I need it the most, and no matter what, she has never failed to listen to my rambles. I would really like to thank her for all the effort she put in to listen to me, no matter how rubbishshitty they were, and for being more than a councillor, for being a geunine friend, for comforting me, for YOU-KNOW-WHAT and too many. <3>its not fair. it really isn't. But since when has Life been fair? Afterall, God puts us where we are, so Im content~ Im resigned to it, Im not blaming anyone or anything. This is what it was meant to be and how it has to be. it's too late to whine, so never mind. (:
I don't want to see you hurt anymore than you should, so it's okay, whatever it is, let me take it all. Because you know, I'd do anything for you, right now. I won't die or anything but this is really really .. It's too fast, for me to hold on to reality, to hold on to something real, before I fall too fast without a hand to save me. I can do this.
I guess Im too tied up over things, but I can't get it out of my mind. It's so trivial but I guess Im super affected by it. Yes, I know Im way too sensitive.
Im so troubled. Like, I don't know what Im doing again, anymore. I think the results are getting to me. I kinda rmb CK irritating me about my results once and Charleston told him off, to stop rubbing salt into my wounds. Somehow, right now, Im kinda grateful to Charleston. But then, haha, of all people! HAHA. Neeeeemind. I really wanted to wrangle CK's neck today. OMGVIOLENCE.
just shutup and drive.
I haven't finished the camp booklet. OMG, YUANSHENG IS GOING TO KILL ME. :( i think i suck. really. im kinda going through the motion of Life, being dazed over everyth and too distracted to think straight. I thought I was so over that but apparently not. SIGH. Yeah, we're living in a screwed-up world. But I guess we've gotta have Faith because You will lead the way. He works in ways we cannot see.
I think its scary thinking about how this place is going to CHANGE. Like major. Just looking at the new MRT map, just gives me the shivers. When is change going to stop?
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