你是谁；哭的到底是不是泪

In The End

Why is it that there are some,
Who cannot see what is beyond their range of sight?
Why is it that Faith erodes so quickly,
Why is it that I can't remember,
What You said yesterday.

Why is it that what we use is only 2%
Of what the Lord allocated to us
For the faithless
Is there no decree of entry?
Is there no interim for recovery?

Why is it that I wonder
How long am I going to linger
How many wonders
Am I going to see

Answers
Who is going to present them
Before me

Who is going to tell me
The next interval's not for a break
Jump over the crevasse
Don't look down

I use ambition
As an excuse to escape
From the mundanity
Of the common world

I use silence
To lend power to my words
I use chaos
To turn italics into bold underlines

I use pride
To escape
From imbecility

For you
I used emotions
To betray my thoughts
It's too bad

That you never heard them
In the end





失去的，还能复合吗？
不可能的事实就得放弃，
这才是
你应该说的话。　

我一定会出人头地的。
就期待世界亮开的一天。

steady hands just take the wheel, time to make one last appeal

DRAMAFEST ROCKED CAN.
AND A01'S PLAY (which was written by VIC DARLING) GOT THE BEST PLAY AWARD!
WOOOOOT!
Everyone did a good job.
Our play, Requiem was superb! :D:D:D:D
NERRINE'S SLAP TO ENGTONG, ENGTONG'S LOUD CRY OF 'CLARA!' SERIOUSLY TOOK THE CAKE, SERIOUSLY.
And Abbie's rendition of his drag queen role was sofunnyican'tlaughmoreandahahahahwasthethingman :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Sorry, I'm stringing my words together already.
And Brian did a good job as Alexander, he managed to do something like passion, so good job yes? (:

And NATNATNAT, THE PRINCESS WITH AN ATTITUDE! WOOOO! (yay council :D:D:D)
Oh and Jalaine for being our wonderful stage manager, Wei Jie for subbing me on the piano and playing such beautiful music, my lovely President and VP, Sarah and Elwin for doing such a good job as emcees, Charleston&Zaid for writing the play, directing and doing various other things like moving tables and acting as Ahmad!, Nerrine&QiXuan&MeiXin&YuKai&YanLi for the great acting, Karen for telling me when to move stuff when I'm BLUR, Deepa&Joy for the great narration!, EeSuan&Jiayi for lights and sounds, Mr Shankar for being such a great Lit teacher! and the rest of the crew for moving stuff really quickly:D, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I HAD A LOT OF FUN, so thank you all :D

And congrats to ABBIE FOR BEST ACTOR, and QIXUAN FOR BEST ACTRESS, and VICTORIA&A01 FOR THEIR BEST PLAY!

Thank you to everyone who came down too! :D:D:D:D


:DDDDDDDDDDDD

I JUST LOVE LIT AND DRAMA AND THE ARTS PEOPLE SO MUCH.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

Today is Desmy's birthday so for starters,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY THAT'S ME! :D
Though you're weird sometimes (and I've come to accept that), you're probably one of the better friends I've made in council (((:
And isn't that great?
We had a friends-only dinner at IMM Ajisen, although I was pretty much against it, hahaha, but it's okay :D:D:D It's her birthday after all :D
And I'm sorry I didn't buy cake to smash on your face!! I know Mr Leow and the netballers bought one each for you already so no cake from me is alright, yes? :D
And yesyes, Wei Guo is really a great guy so don't let him run away! :D

We went to the library to read international newspapers.
I FEEL SO INSPIRED BY THE DAILY TELEGRAPH.
Reading The Straits Times just makes me want to sleep.
Reading The Daily Telegraph gives me great inspiration!
I feel more motivated to study already; any encumbrance in my way is nothing but quicksilver to the rush; can you feel the adrenaline already? :D:D
I want to write, I want to write, I want to write.
I was thinking; I wouldn't mind working for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs either; it's a cool job.
Travelling the world has always been my dream; writing for the world would be another ambitious desire.
Come on Cherie, you can do it!


angry wind that speeds
past my lobes, feed
on shivering dust
suspended like it's their daily task















I want to say that I didn't forget your birthday and that I miss you alot.
Happy belated 18th birthday on the 18th of January, best friend.
I really do miss you much :(

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.







Naomi Uemura, tell me what to do
when we get to the top. Do we go on
climbing? Can we choose not to descend?
When we feel the earth fall beneath us
and wake to the jerk of the rope,
dangling in the void, do our shadows
stay with us, or plummet
down the crevasse? And alone
who is there to belay you up?

Only God knows what you did on his lonely mountains.
Alone, you measured the empty spaces;
alone, you mounted the rising sun
on the roof of the world.

the lights of the mind receding
approaching the land of the midnight sun\

Perhaps I should take my questions
up into the mountains.
tear them up in pieces
and deliver them to the wind.
Long echos
awaiting echos

i forgot long ago about caring too much about people who don't care at all

Today, was packed.
I had fun at the council gathering, chatting with new teachers and fellow councillors, and rolling around in the middle of the field, haha.
I had some fun at grandma's birthday, but someone had to ruin it and I ended up feeling really vexed for the rest of the day, which is now.
Well, to be honest, I was late for ahma's birthday and my dad was shouting at me and yada yada yada and he kept picking on me the whole day.
Ah, f-up. It was just horrendous lah.
I'm just not going to listen and sit in my room with my ipod plugged in my ear.

Today is just screwed up.

no wonder there's all this panic and i mean, please.

I am seriously seriously seriously under the weather like x 10000.
Feeling nauseated all day can't have helped the situation eh?
It's gotten better now but in school today, I was sneezing like once every 5 minutes which frustrated me loads.
I used up 6 packets of kleenex.
Poor trees.
Clarinase really does work. The sneezing stopped; thank GOD.

I really hate people who say, oh please don't use this 'word' and that and whatsoever.
Out of respect, I'd try to minimise the vocal garbage to you but still, it irks me to no end.
Don't sound like my mum, thanks.
I don't know if bitch is considered an expletive; it's used to refer to a female dog after all.
It's not the word per se, but the emotion behind it?
I tend to blurt out some mildly offensive words in casual speak but at the same time, I do expect the company I'm in to understand my meaning.
If one is going to take offense, well then, you're certainly not the company to indulge in casual speak with.
The ramifications of speaking an expletive; I'm always keeping them in check.
So don't worry, I'm not going to ram off the road any time soon.
At the same time, one's augmented head isn't going to do one any good either, so I'd remind you to keep that in check too.

On the basis of primogeniture, I suppose I haven't been much of an older sister.
I'd try harder, much harder.
Doing sister-ly work like screaming at my lazy ass brother to do his homework and at my sister to get off the computer to do homework.
People in all their gaucherie glory. Drat.

I'm going to do up The Plan 2008 before turning in.
Yes, so, it's goodbye for now.


au revoir

Cherie is banging on the keyboard, because:
P&C BLOWS HER BRAINS OUT AND THERE'S LIKE SO MANY BLANKS DAMNIT AND SHE CAN'T REM WHICH ECONS QNS IT IS TMR WHEN THERE'S TUTORIAL IN ANOTHER 12 HRS, OH DEAR HEAVEN.

HELP.

perpetually blowing my nose on tons of tissue paper doesn't help the situation either.

crapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrapzzz.

Labels: frustration

look how far we've come.

I'm really really really really very very very ill right now.
It's probably like one of my worst full-blown illness periods.
I didn't feel well this morning but I still went to the YOG thing anyway.
It was fun :D:D but it could have been fun-er if not for some stuff that happened.
I went home and I collapsed.
Into the bed lah. After bathing, of course.

Watched Huang Jin Yi on teevee just now.
I still feel that her life is really devastating yet insanely blessed at the same time.
Watch it through and you'd understand what I mean.

Tired.
And I still have truckloads of HW to do.
Oh yay JJ from the west, gives homework like the rest.
And I think that losing my voice is the worst f-ing thing ever.
I can't be understood by peoplez who for some reason or another, have microsophic hearing,
I can't rah-rah, well, I can do the actions but not the volume,
I can't shout out mass messages loud enough,
and that SUCKS, big time.
Me: "Oh yeah, I'm Cherie, hi, I need you to move bla-bla-bla -coughcough- and please don't -cough-cough- j1s over here -voice fizzes out-"
Other party/parties: "Huh?"
At least, I manage to do one on one talking pretty easily.
Sa-veh Mu-oi.
Shit happens.

Thinking about end-2008 gets me all HYPED-UP, yes
Beijing Olympics 2008! Which I most likely will get some or more of the action aka, I'd be going to Beijing, China!
THE END OF A LEVELS AND THE END OF MANY MANY YRS OF THE SINGAPORE SCHOOL SYSTEM, YAY.
I will be applying for random universities with my prelims results (WHICH MEANS I HAD BETTER BE CONSISTENT BECAUSE PRELIM HAS LIKE 60% OF HALF-YR WORK, SHIT)
I will be looking for a job to save up moolah to go to Greece with Vic & Siewps, Japan with May Ching and like backpacking the whole of EUROPE with Eevin!!!!!
Yes, dreams.
I'm going to come back to JJ for '09 Orientation!!!!
I'm going to, I'm going to, join Photography and Students' Union in the next school that I go to.
:D:D:D:D:D

I've been hanging out with different cliques lately.
I miss the old cliques.
But new cliques are NICE. Actually, they're basically the same friends with different.. I dunno, people?
Okay, chill.

LOVES.

My voice is still very very very husky.
Zzzzzzh.
Pearlyn says it might never get well, but it will!!!!
The doctor said so too.
Argh, I'm becoming paranoid.
What if, what if, my voice never recovers :(((((((((((
OMG. I will have to go for surgery.

Another day at school.
Pretty much non-interesting as usual.
But I kept my eyes wide open, absorbing as much information as I can, being the kiasu mugger that I am.
Wargh. And I only had one freaking break today.
Today's Math lecturer was not Mr Leow.
I heard Charleston complaining that he should have pon-ed.
What the hell. That's not fair!
He practically pon-ed the whole of last yr's lectures but he still got an A.
Some people are just.. up there.
Like how, I believe that if I pon Lit lectures, I'd still get a grade somewhere near an A.
Not that I would want to. I'm too modest! Nehhhhhhh~.

I feel upset.
It's another one of those days, me thinks. BADDDD~
Vic and I are going to present on our OUAP next week, like OMG.
Vic is pretty nervous about it but she'd do fine :D
I'm surprisingly calm but when the time come, I'm sure I'd get the butterflies.
And that's why I should go up on stage more often.
Experience really does calm the anxiety.
Like how Zhen Xiang couldn't do public presentations before? But I'm sure he's coping fine now. I mean being Camp i/c and all does force you to do mass debriefs and stuff.

Rightttttt.
So I'm excited for the Youth Olympics seminar this saturday.
Boy, I can't wait! Even through it's gonna eat up my SATURDAY, but whatever.
Commitment first, right? :D:D:D:D
Andandandandandand, Xinyi is the overall i/c for YO! -bigCLAPS- :D:D
Suddenly, I feel high.
Woah.

Me and goody goody Eevin (goody goody? ROFL) went out to eat today!
And chat. -sneaky smile-
Elsa VS Isabel! Woah! :D:D:D:D:D
Come on girl, you can do it!
We can go on and on and on and on and on la.
Like on. HAHA.
Ivan and Wan Ting's OG came to Pizza Hut too, where we were dining. Cool lah. So many people in lime green. The J1 kids are all so cute! :D:D
Ay Desmy, it's your shirt design. Proud nots? -grins-
And there was one of my cell grp member working there too! Coincidence?

So,
life's good.
So far.
Until the tests. Yup yup.
Louisa taught me Math today, thank you Louisa! :D:D

LOVES.

I lost my voice!!!!!
Since Admin Day, which is four days ago.
It was the dumbest thing ever, to lose one's voice before the actual camp itself.
But O1 was great!!!!
As always, there's always room for improvement but I believe we gave our best :D
Thank you all for making O1 a success!!
Especially my beloved 27th Students' Council and the OGLs of O1 who made it happen!
Keep on going, from now and further.

We called an almost end, to become a beginning.

And now, it is time for the new batch of leaders to rise up before us.
For us, to guide them by head, heart and hands and to lead them onwards.
There will be a time when our conjoined hands will be released and the 27th will fade into the dawn of the 28th.
For the flag of JJ, to fly high. From now and forever.

For the 27th,
we have gone through many tribulations, many storms, many rocky moments.
Yet, we have shared memories, shared smiles, laughter and dreams.
Through it all, we remember that we'd always be one team, one dream, one family.
In the times that hurt cried tears when we thought it was too much for us, too tough and we struggled to make it through only to realise that YES, WE CAN DO IT.
I can't say that it's been a smooth journey.
But it has been a meaningful journey, a journey worth our all.
Sometimes, people do say things that pierce through our hearts, so much so that we break down in tears, but I always remind myself that the hurt was caused by suspicion, by doubt, by fear.
I won't lie when I say there was a time where I was tired of it all.
But through that time, the councillors were by my side.
And for that, I want to say thank you, thank you all.
Thank you for everything.
27th, we're stepping down soon.
Will we remember the times? Will we still step up to one another and talk and smile like old times? Will we? Will we this, will we that, it is naught for us to say but to Time to reveal its secrets.
People keep talking, they can say what they like, but we know that the 27th will always be for now and forever.
27th, I love you all.
Thank you.

Study hard everyone.

I love you.

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