EHHH. Today's OGL meeting was fun!! :DDDDDD YAYYY. AND I LOVE FAM2!!!! :DDDDDD The fam head for fam 2 is Rong Guo and assist is my dearest Eevin!!! :DDDDDDDDD Oops. Too many smilies. Are you going blind? :DDDD But they were very co-operative and it was great getting to know each other! <3
HM. RESEARCHING MUSIC IS HARD. anditinvolvesillegialdl-ing.. I like Jeong-Hyun Lim's music.. I think he's the guy that XJ showed me the other time, the totally cool guitarist. I think JerryC's rendation of Canon In D Rock is not bad too. But saaaa~ Which one to use for OUAP? :D THIS MAKES ME FEEL LIKE PLAYING PIANO. LOLS.
Okay. I went for the Japanese test today. And woke up freaking early? Luckily, my kind dad woke up early with me to fetch me to Lavender, so that I can take the train onwards to Tanah Merah.. I reached The Japanese School (Primary) in time.. about 10.15? Btw, their classrooms are super cool. Loads of stuff lying around. And I believe that the kids practically stuff everything under their desks and in their cupboards. There was a map of Singapore, a map of the world, various posters in Japanese, a lot of colour and science stuff and pictures and there was even a banner by their class chairperson? A guy, i believe. It said stuff like "Kansai (attention)! Do not litter the classroom blablabla" and had this cute picture of their chairperson in crayon with a fierce look on his face. LOL. Test was difficult. ARGH. Mostly a guessing game? Which is bad.
Still debating if I should sign up for next yr's JCS japanese programme. Even thro it's A lvls .. Well. Tell you another time.
AUNT ELIZABETH MSGED DAD FROM UK!!!!! And she sent us a picture of my little cousin Mel Eloise, who's about 6 months now I believe. She's so cute!! :DDDDDDD Aw, miss them so much. Especially little Elis. She's asked for the fourth time now if we're going over anytime soon. HAHA. I so want to go over. I know I've asked Mum millions of times if I could continue my A levels in UK but nuhhhh, Mum says finish A levels in Singapore, or else! Okay, without the 'or else', but it feels that way. Aw, I'm so bored.
AND CHARLOTTE CALLED TOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! She's shifted again, somemore more central London? ARGH, it was so good to talk to her again!! I wanted to ask her so many things, but it was really late over there so I asked her to take a rest (she just finished doing a school play) first and that I'd call her againnn~ Hmmmm. Sometimes, it feels as if loads of things changed but only Charlotte didn't. LOLZ. As I became more Singaporish, she became more British. I mean, she is British but well, there was a good balance before. Argh, I miss her. Yeah, times change. People change.
I CANT SLEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP BUT IM SO TIREDTIREDTIREDTIRED ARGH! SO BLOG.
I'm so damn bummed. This has to be most tiring shoot evarh. No thanks to the bloody sun. Ohh, but it was fun! I really really really love acting!~ AND, I got to know everyone better, like how Kit Mun is actually my jc senior, and how Nicole is really richnice and down-to-earth and Sandra's name is actually Sandra, hahaha. And how Adrian can be really entertaining when shooting but focused at the same time, and how good of a manager Huiling is (hee!) and ShunPing who kept forcing the actresses to drink more tea and Jeremy who can handle a camera as well as Adrian. Oh and Brendon can actually do bimbotic lines. UH. We got a lot of attention? A lot of tourists kept taking our photos like we were some big stars, HAHA. Actually, today I really felt that star factor. The thing about being in the limelight is that there's endless things on hand for you, the umbrella is always over your head, my dear Huiling is perpectually fanning my face and Brendon kept asking me if I needed this and that and etc. Haha, what can I say? Cool. And I love my co-stars! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD They're all veh veh veh veh veh nice and co-operating and great and wargh~ Just simply, great.
I rem that Adrian was in this awkward position while filming Nicole and some stranger walked past and snapped a pic. We were all, stunned. LOLZ. It.. kinda looked.. wrong? xP There's a scene where Nicole has to show off her ring and guess what, it's a 5 carat ring which it belongs to her mum. It was gorgeous. And I have to add that Nicole is really down-to-earth despite her princess outlook, and that's what makes her really nice to hang out with. Kit Mun was from JJC! Small world huh? Actually, Jeremy is also my senior, my secondary school senior that is. But the sun really killed us all today. & I had fun. I feel like blogging about the last scene, but I shant. Another day after the film's been released (:
life is good, i can't complain.
Never mind about the mountain of homework on my table. You mean, they existed? ROFL. KIDDING. I've finished half of the pile so yeah. But sianz la. IT'S A FREAKING HOL MAN. YEAH, WHATHAPPENEDTO70%. Okay, gambatte. You can't falter now. Rem.. like, next yr's A lvl? Keep telling that to me and I'd study. For sure.
Sis is in THIMUN-Singapore. It's held at HCI. You won't understand how cool this is. It's like The Hague International Model United Nations? There's only 2 from her school who are going as delegates. OMGCOOL. I'm glad for her, cause she wants to be a UN representative. You go for it, girl! Shit, that's like so cool la. URGH. Sometimes, I hate being from a neighbourhood school. That's freaking cool. But it's mostly elite Singapore schools, international schools from arnd the world and uh, american schools. But still cool.
NewS is in Hawaii. Like again. LOLZ. I saw a freaking funny comment : "What, again? Get a new location, you faggots." BWAHAHA. Hey, it's their choice to go where-ever they want with their money, you know. HAHA. ANDANDANDANDANDAND, SHUN'S NEW BUTAI LOOKS GREAT! <3s Andandand, next year Hana Yori The Movie is coming out and I caught an interview of the 4-some, like awesome! :D For Hana Yori 2, they received like over 2500 fan mails and they made Matsujun go though all of them! Or at least he volunteered to, haha :D And he kept going, "So desu ne", "So desu ne" which means 'that's true', he was practically agree-ing with whatever that old guy was saying! &, I can actually understand Japanese now, I have improved!! YES! :D FUNNAY. The host went to sit in Matusjun's F4 chair and someone was saying, in Japanese, "Oh come on, you're already 36 but you're trying to act cool!?" -grins-
Rawr, and Shirota finally appears somewhere where I can actually see him. Yay for the internet. The cutest thing is that in ARASHI, when Nino was away filming Letters of Iwo Jima, they put a cardboard human-sized version of him in the middle. IT. WAS. HILARIOUS. rawr!
It's no use crying over split milk right? Yes. That's why, from now on, I'd help lil bro as much as I can.
I have filming tmr. LOLZ. The lastttt shoot before voice-overs (:
I never even dreamt that a day like this could be real. For all the past days that I've scorned them and looked with at them with nothing but contempt for their incompetence, because they could never be like us and fumed with rage when they were compared to the Express cohort because how on Good Earth can those people even be put on the same weighing scale as we were? Yes, I suffered from the elitist syndrome before. Actually, it's because I'm realistic. Before, I would have rebuffed everyth my mum told me about going to NA, because as the naive girl that I had been, I believed that everyone can do it. Well, I've had many friends in NA and many have succeeded in making their dreams come true, its not impossible but it's definitely a harder, longer route than the Express stream. I won't say anymore, the point I wanted to put across is I never wished for my loved ones to walk such a difficult path. The struggle to be recognized, to lead some kind of a life that is a little more than meaningless, to be easily influenced by people who called themselves friends but in actual fact are nothing less than craven worms; this is my experience with people from NA. Yes, I'm very pessimistic about NA. But my dear younger brother, my only brother, I want you to know that this isn't the end of the road. It may twist and turn and it may be hard and I won't blame you any further, I won't say "You're a disgrace to our family" like Dad did, all Jie wants you to know is that I'd always always be by your side.
So please, remember this day so that it may remind you in future of failure and I hope that you will work much much harder to achieve your dreams. the road is still long; as long as hope does not diminish.
OHKAY YAY. Production for Brendan's place is over. :DDDDD Next up is the park scene. Haha. Btw, today's filming quite alright. I especially loved the phone scene, God knows why. But Marcus' room was so hot! It was like a desert, haha. Brendan passed me like tons of tissue, LOL. RIGHT. YAY FOR PRODUCERS. AND THE ACTRESS. -points at self- :D
WHY DOES TAKU KIMU ALWAYS HAVE MESSY HAIR. DRAT. He'd look so much better w/o messy hair hahaha. Gatsy CM I can understand but even Hero!? WELL. Okay, I aint gonna cramp your style.
Yamanba dresses are so prettay. Too bad they're pricey and I'm broke.
I was reading the papers about the Asean Charter. Aye, it's time something changed about the organisation that likes to talk but doesnt do the walk. With this key charter, Asean will be transfromed from a voluntary grouping into an rules organisation, fostering greater cooperation and economic liberation and evolving into an organisation that would garner the respect of many nations around the world. By 2015, Asean wants to be an economic stronghold and liberalise the goods travelling throughout Asia, garnering greater prosperity for all of us. Plus, Singapore is going to sign a declaration on environment saving which is good news for all of us. I mean, just scrape the F1 thing already! LOLZ. Politics of the world just fasinate me but I decided that there's no way I'm going to be a politician in Singapore. Do we even have politics in S'pore? Oops. Well, sometimes it's just the superficial smiles that fasinate me; yeah, I can play dirty too. HAHAHA. I used to aspire to be a lawyer. Saaaa~ Who knows? Let the stars lead the way. -laughs- Isn't it so cool to be the Secretary-General? One would have the power to make many things right. Tsk. Maybe I should stop myself from trying to stick my head in the fire; but it's always the thrill of the challenge that spurs you on, hahaha.
Did I tell you that vinegar milk is really nice? -envisions stunned looks- Yes, but only with the right vinegar, the kind of Japanese vinegar that my mum has. And with the right concortion of course; it's so delicious. Kinda tastes a little like jelly before it forms. My house is turning into a pantry, LOLZ. Too much food from all over the world. Now, where did those berries from Canada go to? :D
ARGH GIVE ME VAMPIRE KNIGHT'S NEXT CHAPTER, DAMN IT.
Oh, everything I click on my browser, I have a feeling that I'm wasting a little more time. Damn.
I need to read to destress. Crap. Jo asked me, what the heck are you stressed about?? Argh, everything. That's so not a satisfactory answer is it?
Too many things to update, too many dates & faces to remember, but oh, sister's teacher had a wedding dinner at Shangri-La today, haha cool. So I helped her dress up, with my dress and all, LOLZ. And apparently, there was a Japanese gakuen (school) lodging there.. Damn the rich kids. HAHA, kidding. ARGH WISH I HAD MONEY THAT FELL FROM THE SKY, WISH I HAD TOO MUCH CASH UNTIL I CANT REMEMBER MY BANK ACCOUNTS, WISH MY GRINGOTTS ACCOUNT IS LIKE FULL OF GOLD, LIKE OMG LIKE REAL.
I have filming tomorrow.
A miserable kid is one with no money. Cherie is a miserable girl with very little money in her spenditure account, and she feels desolute and desitute. CRUD. Life lieks to play jokes on me like haha.
Suffering while doing Math. Darkness upon light, ink stained fingers. I have a headache. Come on, emulate positive-nessssssssssss. Shit, I hate hijackers. damn documentary.
and I said oh, so I held my head up high, which fuels this selfish pride.
Well. My fingers are itching to write out another one-shot fic. I wonder when will I have the courage to publish these fics. -chuckles- Words like water.
CRUD. I HAVE LIKE ANOTHER WEEK TO STUDY FOR THE PENULTIMATE JAPANESE TEST. Shitshitshitshit. Revise revise relive. I gotta research.
Edit: DID I TELL YOU HOW HOT TAKUYA KIMURA IS? IS IT EVEN A WONDER THAT HE'S STILL THE FAVORITE GUY OF THE YEAR IN JAPAN FOR LIKE TEN YRS IN THE RUNNING? Did I tell you how frigging cute he is doing that Gatsby commercial? And he's thirty years old, shit. Okay, I will shut up now.
Okay, I'm stupid. There's a documentary now and like, my dad was like "Cherie, look! Robins." And I turned and I was like, "Oh wow, they're so cute." And dad was gave me this are-you-stupid-or-are-you-stupid look and said, "You missed it la. That was an owl." LIKE OMGSTUPID! -.-
I went crazy accounting money today. Like rreally crazy. Sometimes, I really really hate money and bigbigsums cause they hurt my head like ouch. Sheesh.
And I'm glad I went out with Eevin today. Was supposed to meet her earlier but because of obligations, I couldnt. Anyway, ate Fish&Co and waited for her to go for alumni choir meeting LOLZ. Apparently, I talked about someone for 7 times today. She was counting. Like wth? Are you that free, girl? Anyway, sometimes I really really really am damn worried for her because of decisions that she makes but then again I'm glad she actually did think about who and what and when and thank God she isn't a bimbo like Andrea makes her out to be. No offence Drea-ly dear! All done in jest (: Was actually supposed to meet Ana but she left JP earlier soo.. O'wells. :/
wish i had one good reason why you're an enigma.
I'm really sad that one of my friends is leaving school. Though we drifted apart in the later days, we knew each other first and we were always together during the first few months of school. The idea that someone you're used to is never going to come back, just saddens me deeply. Cause a friend's always a friend, no matter how far, how long the distance. We were even in the same OG. I really will miss you, my dear. And I wish you well, in all your future endeavors. You cried the most when I told you I was going away to another school, cried the most out of joy when I returned. We have memories shared, yes? I will miss you, I will definitely miss you. Time slips between our fingers; how long too short until we remember that we're only human, we live by the rules of this Earth and we forget how much treasured until how much is gone. Farewell, fare well.
Hello! These past TWO days have been really busyyyyyyy~ Well, not busy as in work busy, but fun busy. ^^ YTD, it was my dearest JOANNE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION although its not her birthday yet, hahah. Hence, met up with the Gang in the afternoon. Actually, I dragged myself to meet them cause was suffering from a lack of sleep.. But I'm glad I went cause it was REALLY FUN! like always. PLUSPLUSPLUS, MY BESTIE WAS THERE!!!! (aka BFF) I missed her so much and throughout the whole day, various events made me realise that she really does understand me the most. Even Wendi, with whom I spent the entire sec3 camp week with & was on better terms with thru-out the 4 yrs in high sch, couldnt figure out the silver lining but she did.
Initially, Huiqing was at town with her dearest earlier.. And like the dodo that I am, I called her, thinking that she'd be with the Gang. After a lot of calls, cause reception underground is really badddd, I finally figured out that she wasnt with the Gang. Well, that probably the only thing that has changed... I mean, people do tend to spend more time with their loved ones right? Haha. Because we havent met up for some time, due to our exams and such, I was thinking, are we even best friends anymore..? I mean, we were such close friends that we transended the friend thing into sisters.. But it turns out that nothing has changed.. Someth she said made me happy though, (even though I didnt tell her..), we are on the verge of a mini squabble (like usual) and she was like "...Why is my boyfriend and my best friend nagging at me about the same things.." It's not the topic we were 'discussing' that made me happy.. It was the reminder of 'best friend' that caused me joy.. Yeah, that's right. We're still, best friends.
Oh and the thing I was 'nagging' her about was actually about church.. Haha, and that's cause her dear and I are both Christians.. Whoa. LOL. But, I was just inviting her to our Christmas service... ROFL.
Oh yes. The celebration was at Cine Kbox. Seriously.. It was CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYY.!! The amount of screaming, jumping and dancing is tantamount to an earthquake. Jo is really cute, whenever she sees someone walk past our door, she turns in circles cause she doesnt want the person to see her face!!! IT'S SO FUNNY!! :DDDDDD FUNNNAYYYYY. Loves. You really have to be there to understand what I'm talking about. And Huiqing actually didnt sit down and watch us go crazy! She stood up! She actually stood up!!!!! The best friend has made an improvement :DDDDD Is that because you're training to go clubbing next year? -mildly suspicious- I was greatly entertained by Louisa, Yongxin & Jo's fantastic dance imitations. SUGEI. And because they decided to go to the Singapore River (despite me being reluctant..), Losa and I missed the last bus. And we took a cab home. And I got home at midnight. And was severely reprimanded by parents!!! D':
TODAY was fun too. After OUAP briefing which was fun by itself (The teacher approved of our event!!!YAY), after going to Councilroom to finish some unfinished stuff, I joined The Muggers' (sans a lot of people) for lunch. May Ching treated me to lunch cause I took care of her baby :D Oh and I don't need to hear more than I need to know... Ching Khang was shooting his mouth off as always.. Which pretty much ruined my mood for the following hours. Ugh. But I don't blame him cause he doesn't know anything, haha. And we had trouble calculating money.. SURPRISINGLY, IT WAS ME, THE HORRENDOUS PROMO U-GRADER MATH STUDENT WHO MANAGED TO CALCULATE OUT THE CHANGE. lolx. Yes, I passed Math overally but I actualy scored like 28.5 for Promo Math. Yesyes, I know that's like.. so pathetic. Actually, kinda proud that I managed to calculate out that tricky change.. :D Went to pets shop and played with hamster cages. LOL. Thinking of getting a few hamsters and buying a huge cage for them. HEE. -grins-
Okay, now my dad is shooting off weird stuff about documentaries like, "Oh, maybe there's a spaceship below...?" Which makes me laugh at that utter hilarious notion.
I'm so disappointed in my brother. When I told you to do the best in whatever you do, that wasn't what I meant.. I wish you would grow up soon, so that I too, can be somehow, a little proud of you. Sigh.
If you walk the footsteps of a stranger, then you'll learn things you never knew...
I had a meeting with the OUAP girls from Team D today. It was very enjoyable and I feel that we'd have a great trip together :DDDD The event that we decided on was fab too; we're so going to have fun!! I'm so glad I've got such a great team to work with (: Plus, Siewps and Vic are in the same team as me too!
HURHHHHHHH> I SAW YONGXIN IN SCHOOL! ZZZZZ. Okay, why that reaction. She was doing E-clubbu stuff. I never thought I would say this, but I missed her! Actually, I saw manymany familiar faces in school today. Like QianYun, YanXi etc etc Hahaha. This is the reaction of someone who has not seen her closest friends for days and is dying out. Luckily, today I got to hang out with Vic and Siewps! So, pretty happy. :DDDDDDDD
Humph. Come to think of it, the ultimate bestieZ (aka 7seven), esp leonghuiqing is still doing their poly exams.. Or not? Come on polys, you can churn out papers faster than that!
I got back my result slip today. AND IM TO PROUD TO SAY THAT I DIN FAIL ANYTHING! Overall. Well, it aint fantastic but here are the scores: 2 Bs (English Lit, GP) 2 Ds (Chinese, Geography) 2 Es (Econs, Math)
I have to say this though, my GP percentile is like 99.8% !!!!!! At first, I was like WTF? How is that humanly possible when all I got was a B? But than, our kind Yongxin explained things to me, like how it's level ranking and all or whatever. And I went, whoaaaaaaaaaa~ I was that close to 100%! Okay, that pisses me off, really. Cause B is the WORST kind of grade you can get, its so freaking close to an A but yet it's not like A, ARGH, the torment is so painful.. Lit percentile was good too, 95.2% ... Well, secretly I'm still pissed that I wasn't the highest in level for Lit, but I won't be a sore loser. I'd work harder, I swear. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Congrats to Yanli for getting the highest in Lit~ Everyth else's percentile IS NOT EVEN WORTH CONTEMPLATING.
My mum didnt even want to look at my results. ARGH, I'm sorry I didn't even work hard for Promos, okay? I know you guys always put so much hope on me, but I'm always letting you down. Before, it was because I didn't want to stay in SA, and I swore that even in JJ I'd get good results. I won't go back on my word. Swear. But considering that I was at 30% speed throughout the entire Promos period, I actually think that I have done better than what I thought I'd get though 30% . Oh and I love Ms Pereira, her comments for me were really really good. But I'm sure she did that for everyone else too :D
Yea Vic, I did say I'm a superly competitive person, well, I wasnt wrong about myself at least. In the face of adversaries, I always perform better. Because by nature, I'm such a lazy person -.- I need an 'engine' to keep me going. Now that my targeted opponents have emerged, well, from now onwards, I'm going at 70%. Can't go at 100% all the time, I'd get tired, LOL. My dear dear cousin is right, next year is the J2 year. If only we can fight on an equal standing, but well, we'd never been on an equal standing.. You being in VJ and all. Good luck. Theneed to move faster, and beyond.
one who doesnt focus on the present, has no right to talk about the future..
Even though I said I didn't want to sleep, in the end, I did. -.- Well, I'm only human afterall.
Right! But at least I managed to do SOMETHING fruitful. I actually packed my table! :D Andandand, I'm going to buy PROPER FILES to store all my work.. I can't find the big files that my maid claims to be in the big white cupboards.. DOT. Hm. I can't stand being disorganized, but sometimes, I'm disorganized on purpose.. Nevermind. I'm not making any sense, am I? It's like how, sometimes my phone goes flat and I forget to charge it.
I'm going to call my friends later. I feel kinda... detached from the world. LOLS. I absolutely refuse to become a hermit. But then, most of them are busy with examinations.. and Yongxin will most likely kill me for disturbing her precious 7-9 TV watching time. Sigh. OHHHHHHHHH! Yabe. I missed the gathering last friday, again. I think the Gang got tired of reminding me, LOL.
Somehow, I lost Siewps library book without knowing it. Why am I feeling kinda depressed again? Sigh. Sorry le. Somehow, (again) I will drag my savings out to pay for the fines. Are you mad at me? I hope not. :(((((((((((((((((((((( edit: okay, she isn't.
It was a boring day.
EDIT: NEED TO CALL GIRLFRIENDS OUT, NOW. loneliness is killing me. ARGH. oh, hahaha, sorry K, forgot that you're not a girlfriend! But you're included too:D 7sevennnnnnnnnnnnnnn. When are all your poly exams going to be ovarhh???
After taking medicine, things are actually swirling around me now. I feel like sleeping. But I don't give a damn. -laughs- Sleeping this early in the morning after I've woken up is a total waste of time, so I won't do it. It's different when I'm still sleeping and I feel like continuing my sleep. Head hurts, boo~ Even so, reading about fandom news makes me happy :D Will post personal squees on Vox later.
Yay, Toma in Honey&Clover! :DDDDDDD And there's a new Arashi CM for C1000. And I havent been listening to Matsujun's radioshow lately.. I've been busy. Sigh. Oh, and I've gotten NewS' latest song releases! :DDDDDDD Thankyou jesummary, haha. Still waiting for my AAA Dome DVD from Japan.. GR.
Yeesh. Mum's yelling at me to get off the com and go to sleep. Ciao.
I have very bad wake-up timing. And my sister complains about my phone alarm song. It's Arashi's Pikanchi Double. She was like "I do love Pikanchi Double, but if you hear it every single morning, first going 'bezz bezz' cause its vibrating on the table, and than 'da da da ra da de da' (that's PikanchiDouble's opening notes) and then 'minna atta mane ichi' , I feel like stranging Nino everytime." Shiat. -laughs- Cause Nino's voice is the most prominent on the opening lyrics. Sorry, Nino. To save you from my sister's deathly fingers, I shall change my alarm song. But I cannot not have an alarm clock. I will never, never, wake up. LOL. I save my sister's ears from Pikanchi Double on schooldays, cause Dad wakes me up on schooldays, LOL. Come to think about it, the song was Smack That by Akon before. And she screamed at me about it too. ROFL. Sorry. I need the alarm. Holidays are different. I can sleep until 1 pm.
Today, I woke late today cause I was so depending on Xue Ting's call to wake me up, to be safe I even set the alarm at 7 am. But it never came. -.- Know why? Phone went flat in the middle of the night and I never received the call nor the alarm. Thank you Xue Ting and Gabriel for waiting for me. We were practically running into church. Everything was in a blur, I could just see loads of ushers and church members around me. So I grabbed onto Xue Ting's hand so that we wont lose each other and dragged her over to the choir area. Lols. Gabriel that brat, he was being so slow!!!!! Plus he's small-sized, so everytime I turn around to check that he's still following diligently, I can't see him. (Oops, I'd get killed if he sees this.) Sometimes I snap at him, "Gabriel, hurry up!" I shouldn't have. Sorry. -apologetic smile-
Saw Samantha after such a longgggg time. She changed to an adult cell group. Kinda miss her :( I really want to try her cooking too! Sigh. First familiar face in service I saw was Benedict, as usual. LOL. Cause he's serving as an usher, so it's pretty easy to catch him around the entrance or the terrace areas. Anyways, ushers were wearing formal clothes today. Cool la. Oh, and Ben ar. Sorry la, SA shirt still not in your hands. :( Cause rushed out of house today. ARGH. I SWEAR I WILL REMEMBER TO BRING IT NEXT WEEK, NEXT WEEEEEKKK. And and, today's service is the coolest ever!!!!! It was like 3.5 hours? Cause Pastor Olf and this singer called Carola from Sweden was here, so we had a longggg Praise, and then the Word, than Praise again, as usual, den mini concert by Carola. She's great la. Really must check her songs out.
Feel guilty again la. Today should have gone over to grandma's place with Dad. Cause tired, so fell asleep at the clubhouse lounge while mum went to run. She packed me dinner from her house. You know, sometimes when Dad tells her I'm coming over but I end up being busy or smth, she would prepare alotalotalot of things to eat just cause I was supposed to come over. Grandma's great. And I love her loads. I'm her favorite granddaughter, and I also happen to be her oldest granddaughter by the surname of Lian. Also, notoriously known as the never-early-daxiaojie. >< I really must go over next week. I miss my little cousins too, haha. But so many of my family members are overseas la, even gugu is in Shanghai. Gomenasai grandma, next week I will definitely go over. Muarh.
Howl's Moving Castle rocks. I re-watched it, through it's in English now. I greatly prefer the nihon-go version but that's maybe cause I'm biased. Ahahahaha. Um. Same sentiments as usual, Howl rocks, Sophie rocks, music rocks = Joe Hisashi rocks, Studio Ghibli is the king, no other anime maker can be as good as Studio Ghibli. Hoho. So, watch it. :D Another Japanese anime that's not really anime, greatly recommended, is Spirited Away. Can you believe I was so scared when I watched Spirited Away for the first time, when I was twelve? It was at Bee jie's house and I remember I was literally sobbing cause it was so "scary". To me, it was then. Ah, how people change. Neeways, they're both awesome.
I'm so so so damn exhuasted. Despite just standing at the pitch, for a few hours. Helped out at the ISSAC event today, which stands for International and Singapore Schools Atheletic(sp?whatevr) Championships. Right. A really long name. Basically, its the soccer championships for kids twelve and below. It's really quite encouraging to watch how kids strive to run faster, kick better, score goals, outsmart their opponents throughout the game. Cause Pengs & I were ball people for pitch 2, we got bored at the last game and started talking to each other instead of staring at the game. Oops. Although their angles were pretty much off most of the time, there were some really good players. Quote Elwin: Kranji number 10! I don't even know his name though... Hahah. I could kinda imagine my lil brother running around like that, though he's more interested in basketball. Haha. Jun, go join soccer, now. It's an order from your almighty older sister, hahahaha.
I was late for cell group, though. It's at Peter's place today. Luckily, I didnt get lost like I always do for Joraine's although I did take the wrong train... I was too damn tired and checked the map for Sembawang station and wandered off to the wrong platform. It took me to Bukit Gombak, and I was sooo totally, (&^*%$^!!!! Cherie, you're so not cognizant of your surroundings. Yay. Oh, and I didnt see Joraine again!!!! I think she's working or something. But still, we always miss each other!! Like 2 weeks ago, I went for service and she didnt. Last week, she went for service and I didnt. And this week she wasnt there for cell but I was. Should go message her later.. Janice's wedding is coming soon! :D I'M SO HAPPY FOR HER! And I really miss her too. I havent seen her in ages la. It's on the 25th, just four days before I fly. :D
I have a Japanese test on the 25th too. And I have to go all the way to The Japanese School (Primary) at Changi. How fun is that? I have to score well, cause if I do, you won't see me for a week next year :D I'd be in Japan! HAHAHAAAAAA. If.
Okay. Freaking tired. Filming is cancelled tomorrow which is kinda good, cause I'm really really not in a mood to give my acting best. Right.
Jason finally remembered my birthday passed. Che. He does that every year. Some years, he remembers on the day but some years, he takes one month to tell me happy belated. LOL. He remembered on the date last year. Yay Jason. Btw, he's my Pri 6 best friend. HAHA. Not bad right. I still have a friend left from Pri 6 :D
Come to think about, I really miss my 7seven sisters. Sigh.
誰かは生命に達成したすべてが夢を達成できればべきならも、幸運である。 One is lucky, even if all they achieved in life is to be able to fulfill their dreams.
Okay, Bambino has a surprise. Ban is made to work in the dining area, instead of the kitchen!! Whoa. That sure was a surprise, for me at least.
Harumph. Need cash. To buy books and stuff, hahaha. Argh. I'm too lazy to go find a job. Was supposed to actually go for an interview with Ee, but well, someone screwed that up. -BIGSACARSTICSMILE- I can't name names here, especially someone's, otherwise TONS of people will bash me and bashing is not nice, no? And the both of us kinda forgot about going for that interview, LOL.
Actually, I so shouldnt be concerned about this. My father just nagged me about Econs, which remembered me about Maths. Shiat. The other day I practiced Math till 2 am, which I have never done in my lifetime. HMMMM. Cherie is changing, eh? But it's still mucho sian for me.
Weekends are taken up by plenty of events, council, filming, church and stuff. Oh.. YES, I havent updated about filming eh? It was awesome, will update this coming monday. Cause the next filming is scheduled this Sunday. And I have to remember my lines, haha. :D But it's fun.
Again, another episode of Bambino watched. I can't describe the love I have for this drama series. It inspired me, beyond any other jdorama that I have watched, even Hana Yori Dango. It does exhilarate me & it reminds me of the CANT-DO attitude I have, that Ban had before he got used to the life in Baccanale. I hate this feeling, this No longer, no longer will I stop trying, when I know I can do it, I can do it. Enlightenment; it's a punch in my face, kinda like a voice going, "What are you doing!!!???!!! HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ABOUT PERSERVERANCE, DETERMINATION? It is the choices you make that matter! Have you forgotten, or are you simply ignorant!" Yes, I am ignorant. There's so much to learn, too much to learn. That's why, no one should ever give up.
Joon said something that I remembered: "Reading should be a hobby, it should be a lifestyle." Aye. To remain au fait in the current events, in Council events, in class events, in family events, in my beloved friends' events, sure is difficult, eh. Though reading has nothing to do with the above four events, I should still continue my habit of reading. Maaaaaaaaa ne. ~ GP yo. To be au courant, to be cognizant of our everyday shortcomings and the solutions to the problems that arise in life, it's a simple rule that governs the world. A rule that once followed, does not guarantee constant success, but guarantees that we would be able to solve our failures and move on, to what lies ahead. The world isn't simple; it is cruel. That is why, we should be unrivaled in what we are best at, but not indispensible, because to be indispensible is to be selfish. There's a difference, isn't there?
When Ban (Ban in Bambino) cried because he had to leave Baccanale, hence, it rendered his dream to cook as well as the others, unfulfilled, I shared his tears. In all, to understand the loss of one's dream, perhaps, I am the best candidate for that role. So many many great dreams unfulfilled; some will never be fulfilled. I told myself, it's okay, come on, move on. Isn't that what I always tell myself? We have to move on, don't we. We have to keep on going. Tomorrow will be a brighter day. To name the number of my dreams, little ones, big ones, unfulfilled; there's just too many. I don't know if it's because I've done something wrong, or complacency is often the mistake or perhaps, my Loving God meant it to be so. But God, my dreams, should be Your dreams too, right? You love us, because we are Your children, so like a Father, You only wish the best for us, isn't it? But God, I always ask, when will my dreams be fulfilled, God? When will it be my turn, God? I'm impatient, Lord forgive me, but God, it is this nature of mine that led me to doubt You. I can't say, Devil, I command you to cast away these doubts of my Father, God of all Gods, Father of the Earth, King of his Kingdom. I can't. They return to me, time and time again. It's because, from the bottom of my heart, from the depth of my soul, I do so feel this way. I do feel lost, I feel forgotten, I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel that it's not impossible. The faithless has no home, God does not answer the faithless. Perhaps, that is where, I have gone wrong, all along. Lord, Lord, forgive me, for I am nothing, nothing, but an ignorant child, lost and confused, frightened and afraid, that her dreams will be shattered into stardust again, so much so that, she would do anything, in the world, to protect them, no matter how silly, how stupid it may seem, they will come true. I will go to Cambridge.
Through it all, you are a nothing but a child in the eyes of the ancient world, groping her way in the darkness, until you find the light.
there's nothing such as too hard, or too tough, nothing too difficult for the empowered & the envisioned.
I M POSSIBLE. hm.
Drat, I missed the Vivitar Camera sale again. Crap. I wanted to bring it along to Xi'An, so that my family can enjoy the glorious sights, HAHA. The effects that camera makes is awesome. Tsk. Never mind, there will be another sale :D
My dearest mother is obsessed with vinegar! The other day she bought aLOT of Japanese special vinegar and mixed vinegar, and she added them to my juice just now. It's tasted fine, just with a tangy aftertaste and as I got to the bottom of the cup, it got stronger and had a sharper taste to it. It actually tastes a bit like apple cider, which I must comment that my mother also possesses in her kitchen cupboards.
I think being a pilot is scary, but then again, its how you handle the responsibility of being a pilot and whether you can live up to it, that really matters.
Maych's baby just bit me. It's a super deep cut and I screamed at the bloody hamster for that. LOL. But anyway, it bit me! GRRRRRRR. I'd let your owner handle you when she gets back. GR.
So. After putting off a lot of things BEHIND MY BACK, they're going to return to me soon. SIGH. I kinda miss my friends. Kinda? I mean, really. This always happens every holiday..
Guess what, yesterday was the twerp's birthday. Happy belated 15th, love. Aw, little sister's all grown up now (: We had a slamming party, at the clubhouse and all, with this humongous cake and all, lounging by the poolside, taking crazy photos with mum's friends and Michellina. It was fun, even if it wasnt as glamourous as an 18th birthday would have been. So. I didn't forget your birthday, even if you thought I did.. I just havent bought you a birthday present, hahaha. But all you need is a hug from me to show my love, right? So here's a virtual HUGGGGGGG. Muarh.
I liked the cake.
Mum had fun mooning about how I absolutely refused to enter this toilet in UK because it was kinda run down and all. Helooooo. You have to look at the person you're talking about you know. I've never lived in anywhere but the city. PS, that part of the United Kingdom was a certain countryside petrol station toilet, hence, the ew-ness. Most parts of the UK are really damn lovely :D 'Cept for that one toilet.
You know, I've been thinking. I've seen too many of my little dreams getting crushed. What with H3 lit and all, but that was my fault too, I decided for myself that I didnt want it. But nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing is going to stand in my way of A levels. No one can understand how much I want to study overseas, just, no one. Next year is going to be a scary year, but I'd be scarier. Becoming an official mugger sure isn't my idea of fun. But it's the ticket to a different world.
Still, I'd be turning 18 next year. Now, that is my idea of fun. :D
RAWR>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> -kills someone on a virtual gaming ground- Yay, maplestory. NOT. Halflife 2 rocks my socks.
(If I had a choice on how my life will be, I want to travel with someone I love,
and take photographs of the myriad and the pretty, spreading the love of Christ,
near and far until the ends of the world!)
I ♥ God and God ♥ me!
Contrary to popular belief, I'm not unfriendly!!!!!!
Talk to me and I'd definitely talk to you.
Most people don't really get me but I usually get most people.
Economics is beyond fascinating. ;)
x
Family is ♥!
Best friends are ♥!
Colours are ♥!
The universe is ♥!
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26 November 2007
seeing too little of Senri makes me sad :(
EHHH. Today's OGL meeting was fun!! :DDDDDD YAYYY. AND I LOVE FAM2!!!! :DDDDDD The fam head for fam 2 is Rong Guo and assist is my dearest Eevin!!! :DDDDDDDDD Oops. Too many smilies. Are you going blind? :DDDD But they were very co-operative and it was great getting to know each other! <3
HM. RESEARCHING MUSIC IS HARD. anditinvolvesillegialdl-ing.. I like Jeong-Hyun Lim's music.. I think he's the guy that XJ showed me the other time, the totally cool guitarist. I think JerryC's rendation of Canon In D Rock is not bad too. But saaaa~ Which one to use for OUAP? :D THIS MAKES ME FEEL LIKE PLAYING PIANO. LOLS.
Okay. I went for the Japanese test today. And woke up freaking early? Luckily, my kind dad woke up early with me to fetch me to Lavender, so that I can take the train onwards to Tanah Merah.. I reached The Japanese School (Primary) in time.. about 10.15? Btw, their classrooms are super cool. Loads of stuff lying around. And I believe that the kids practically stuff everything under their desks and in their cupboards. There was a map of Singapore, a map of the world, various posters in Japanese, a lot of colour and science stuff and pictures and there was even a banner by their class chairperson? A guy, i believe. It said stuff like "Kansai (attention)! Do not litter the classroom blablabla" and had this cute picture of their chairperson in crayon with a fierce look on his face. LOL. Test was difficult. ARGH. Mostly a guessing game? Which is bad.
Still debating if I should sign up for next yr's JCS japanese programme. Even thro it's A lvls .. Well. Tell you another time.
AUNT ELIZABETH MSGED DAD FROM UK!!!!! And she sent us a picture of my little cousin Mel Eloise, who's about 6 months now I believe. She's so cute!! :DDDDDDD Aw, miss them so much. Especially little Elis. She's asked for the fourth time now if we're going over anytime soon. HAHA. I so want to go over. I know I've asked Mum millions of times if I could continue my A levels in UK but nuhhhh, Mum says finish A levels in Singapore, or else! Okay, without the 'or else', but it feels that way. Aw, I'm so bored.
AND CHARLOTTE CALLED TOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! She's shifted again, somemore more central London? ARGH, it was so good to talk to her again!! I wanted to ask her so many things, but it was really late over there so I asked her to take a rest (she just finished doing a school play) first and that I'd call her againnn~ Hmmmm. Sometimes, it feels as if loads of things changed but only Charlotte didn't. LOLZ. As I became more Singaporish, she became more British. I mean, she is British but well, there was a good balance before. Argh, I miss her. Yeah, times change. People change.
I CANT SLEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP BUT IM SO TIREDTIREDTIREDTIRED ARGH! SO BLOG.
I'm so damn bummed. This has to be most tiring shoot evarh. No thanks to the bloody sun. Ohh, but it was fun! I really really really love acting!~ AND, I got to know everyone better, like how Kit Mun is actually my jc senior, and how Nicole is really richnice and down-to-earth and Sandra's name is actually Sandra, hahaha. And how Adrian can be really entertaining when shooting but focused at the same time, and how good of a manager Huiling is (hee!) and ShunPing who kept forcing the actresses to drink more tea and Jeremy who can handle a camera as well as Adrian. Oh and Brendon can actually do bimbotic lines. UH. We got a lot of attention? A lot of tourists kept taking our photos like we were some big stars, HAHA. Actually, today I really felt that star factor. The thing about being in the limelight is that there's endless things on hand for you, the umbrella is always over your head, my dear Huiling is perpectually fanning my face and Brendon kept asking me if I needed this and that and etc. Haha, what can I say? Cool. And I love my co-stars! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD They're all veh veh veh veh veh nice and co-operating and great and wargh~ Just simply, great.
I rem that Adrian was in this awkward position while filming Nicole and some stranger walked past and snapped a pic. We were all, stunned. LOLZ. It.. kinda looked.. wrong? xP There's a scene where Nicole has to show off her ring and guess what, it's a 5 carat ring which it belongs to her mum. It was gorgeous. And I have to add that Nicole is really down-to-earth despite her princess outlook, and that's what makes her really nice to hang out with. Kit Mun was from JJC! Small world huh? Actually, Jeremy is also my senior, my secondary school senior that is. But the sun really killed us all today. & I had fun. I feel like blogging about the last scene, but I shant. Another day after the film's been released (:
life is good, i can't complain.
Never mind about the mountain of homework on my table. You mean, they existed? ROFL. KIDDING. I've finished half of the pile so yeah. But sianz la. IT'S A FREAKING HOL MAN. YEAH, WHATHAPPENEDTO70%. Okay, gambatte. You can't falter now. Rem.. like, next yr's A lvl? Keep telling that to me and I'd study. For sure.
Sis is in THIMUN-Singapore. It's held at HCI. You won't understand how cool this is. It's like The Hague International Model United Nations? There's only 2 from her school who are going as delegates. OMGCOOL. I'm glad for her, cause she wants to be a UN representative. You go for it, girl! Shit, that's like so cool la. URGH. Sometimes, I hate being from a neighbourhood school. That's freaking cool. But it's mostly elite Singapore schools, international schools from arnd the world and uh, american schools. But still cool.
NewS is in Hawaii. Like again. LOLZ. I saw a freaking funny comment : "What, again? Get a new location, you faggots." BWAHAHA. Hey, it's their choice to go where-ever they want with their money, you know. HAHA. ANDANDANDANDANDAND, SHUN'S NEW BUTAI LOOKS GREAT! <3s Andandand, next year Hana Yori The Movie is coming out and I caught an interview of the 4-some, like awesome! :D For Hana Yori 2, they received like over 2500 fan mails and they made Matsujun go though all of them! Or at least he volunteered to, haha :D And he kept going, "So desu ne", "So desu ne" which means 'that's true', he was practically agree-ing with whatever that old guy was saying! &, I can actually understand Japanese now, I have improved!! YES! :D FUNNAY. The host went to sit in Matusjun's F4 chair and someone was saying, in Japanese, "Oh come on, you're already 36 but you're trying to act cool!?" -grins-
Rawr, and Shirota finally appears somewhere where I can actually see him. Yay for the internet. The cutest thing is that in ARASHI, when Nino was away filming Letters of Iwo Jima, they put a cardboard human-sized version of him in the middle. IT. WAS. HILARIOUS. rawr!
It's no use crying over split milk right? Yes. That's why, from now on, I'd help lil bro as much as I can.
I have filming tmr. LOLZ. The lastttt shoot before voice-overs (:
I never even dreamt that a day like this could be real. For all the past days that I've scorned them and looked with at them with nothing but contempt for their incompetence, because they could never be like us and fumed with rage when they were compared to the Express cohort because how on Good Earth can those people even be put on the same weighing scale as we were? Yes, I suffered from the elitist syndrome before. Actually, it's because I'm realistic. Before, I would have rebuffed everyth my mum told me about going to NA, because as the naive girl that I had been, I believed that everyone can do it. Well, I've had many friends in NA and many have succeeded in making their dreams come true, its not impossible but it's definitely a harder, longer route than the Express stream. I won't say anymore, the point I wanted to put across is I never wished for my loved ones to walk such a difficult path. The struggle to be recognized, to lead some kind of a life that is a little more than meaningless, to be easily influenced by people who called themselves friends but in actual fact are nothing less than craven worms; this is my experience with people from NA. Yes, I'm very pessimistic about NA. But my dear younger brother, my only brother, I want you to know that this isn't the end of the road. It may twist and turn and it may be hard and I won't blame you any further, I won't say "You're a disgrace to our family" like Dad did, all Jie wants you to know is that I'd always always be by your side.
So please, remember this day so that it may remind you in future of failure and I hope that you will work much much harder to achieve your dreams. the road is still long; as long as hope does not diminish.
OHKAY YAY. Production for Brendan's place is over. :DDDDD Next up is the park scene. Haha. Btw, today's filming quite alright. I especially loved the phone scene, God knows why. But Marcus' room was so hot! It was like a desert, haha. Brendan passed me like tons of tissue, LOL. RIGHT. YAY FOR PRODUCERS. AND THE ACTRESS. -points at self- :D
WHY DOES TAKU KIMU ALWAYS HAVE MESSY HAIR. DRAT. He'd look so much better w/o messy hair hahaha. Gatsy CM I can understand but even Hero!? WELL. Okay, I aint gonna cramp your style.
Yamanba dresses are so prettay. Too bad they're pricey and I'm broke.
I was reading the papers about the Asean Charter. Aye, it's time something changed about the organisation that likes to talk but doesnt do the walk. With this key charter, Asean will be transfromed from a voluntary grouping into an rules organisation, fostering greater cooperation and economic liberation and evolving into an organisation that would garner the respect of many nations around the world. By 2015, Asean wants to be an economic stronghold and liberalise the goods travelling throughout Asia, garnering greater prosperity for all of us. Plus, Singapore is going to sign a declaration on environment saving which is good news for all of us. I mean, just scrape the F1 thing already! LOLZ. Politics of the world just fasinate me but I decided that there's no way I'm going to be a politician in Singapore. Do we even have politics in S'pore? Oops. Well, sometimes it's just the superficial smiles that fasinate me; yeah, I can play dirty too. HAHAHA. I used to aspire to be a lawyer. Saaaa~ Who knows? Let the stars lead the way. -laughs- Isn't it so cool to be the Secretary-General? One would have the power to make many things right. Tsk. Maybe I should stop myself from trying to stick my head in the fire; but it's always the thrill of the challenge that spurs you on, hahaha.
Did I tell you that vinegar milk is really nice? -envisions stunned looks- Yes, but only with the right vinegar, the kind of Japanese vinegar that my mum has. And with the right concortion of course; it's so delicious. Kinda tastes a little like jelly before it forms. My house is turning into a pantry, LOLZ. Too much food from all over the world. Now, where did those berries from Canada go to? :D
ARGH GIVE ME VAMPIRE KNIGHT'S NEXT CHAPTER, DAMN IT.
Oh, everything I click on my browser, I have a feeling that I'm wasting a little more time. Damn.
I need to read to destress. Crap. Jo asked me, what the heck are you stressed about?? Argh, everything. That's so not a satisfactory answer is it?
Too many things to update, too many dates & faces to remember, but oh, sister's teacher had a wedding dinner at Shangri-La today, haha cool. So I helped her dress up, with my dress and all, LOLZ. And apparently, there was a Japanese gakuen (school) lodging there.. Damn the rich kids. HAHA, kidding. ARGH WISH I HAD MONEY THAT FELL FROM THE SKY, WISH I HAD TOO MUCH CASH UNTIL I CANT REMEMBER MY BANK ACCOUNTS, WISH MY GRINGOTTS ACCOUNT IS LIKE FULL OF GOLD, LIKE OMG LIKE REAL.
I have filming tomorrow.
A miserable kid is one with no money. Cherie is a miserable girl with very little money in her spenditure account, and she feels desolute and desitute. CRUD. Life lieks to play jokes on me like haha.
Suffering while doing Math. Darkness upon light, ink stained fingers. I have a headache. Come on, emulate positive-nessssssssssss. Shit, I hate hijackers. damn documentary.
and I said oh, so I held my head up high, which fuels this selfish pride.
Well. My fingers are itching to write out another one-shot fic. I wonder when will I have the courage to publish these fics. -chuckles- Words like water.
CRUD. I HAVE LIKE ANOTHER WEEK TO STUDY FOR THE PENULTIMATE JAPANESE TEST. Shitshitshitshit. Revise revise relive. I gotta research.
Edit: DID I TELL YOU HOW HOT TAKUYA KIMURA IS? IS IT EVEN A WONDER THAT HE'S STILL THE FAVORITE GUY OF THE YEAR IN JAPAN FOR LIKE TEN YRS IN THE RUNNING? Did I tell you how frigging cute he is doing that Gatsby commercial? And he's thirty years old, shit. Okay, I will shut up now.
Okay, I'm stupid. There's a documentary now and like, my dad was like "Cherie, look! Robins." And I turned and I was like, "Oh wow, they're so cute." And dad was gave me this are-you-stupid-or-are-you-stupid look and said, "You missed it la. That was an owl." LIKE OMGSTUPID! -.-
I went crazy accounting money today. Like rreally crazy. Sometimes, I really really hate money and bigbigsums cause they hurt my head like ouch. Sheesh.
And I'm glad I went out with Eevin today. Was supposed to meet her earlier but because of obligations, I couldnt. Anyway, ate Fish&Co and waited for her to go for alumni choir meeting LOLZ. Apparently, I talked about someone for 7 times today. She was counting. Like wth? Are you that free, girl? Anyway, sometimes I really really really am damn worried for her because of decisions that she makes but then again I'm glad she actually did think about who and what and when and thank God she isn't a bimbo like Andrea makes her out to be. No offence Drea-ly dear! All done in jest (: Was actually supposed to meet Ana but she left JP earlier soo.. O'wells. :/
wish i had one good reason why you're an enigma.
I'm really sad that one of my friends is leaving school. Though we drifted apart in the later days, we knew each other first and we were always together during the first few months of school. The idea that someone you're used to is never going to come back, just saddens me deeply. Cause a friend's always a friend, no matter how far, how long the distance. We were even in the same OG. I really will miss you, my dear. And I wish you well, in all your future endeavors. You cried the most when I told you I was going away to another school, cried the most out of joy when I returned. We have memories shared, yes? I will miss you, I will definitely miss you. Time slips between our fingers; how long too short until we remember that we're only human, we live by the rules of this Earth and we forget how much treasured until how much is gone. Farewell, fare well.
Hello! These past TWO days have been really busyyyyyyy~ Well, not busy as in work busy, but fun busy. ^^ YTD, it was my dearest JOANNE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION although its not her birthday yet, hahah. Hence, met up with the Gang in the afternoon. Actually, I dragged myself to meet them cause was suffering from a lack of sleep.. But I'm glad I went cause it was REALLY FUN! like always. PLUSPLUSPLUS, MY BESTIE WAS THERE!!!! (aka BFF) I missed her so much and throughout the whole day, various events made me realise that she really does understand me the most. Even Wendi, with whom I spent the entire sec3 camp week with & was on better terms with thru-out the 4 yrs in high sch, couldnt figure out the silver lining but she did.
Initially, Huiqing was at town with her dearest earlier.. And like the dodo that I am, I called her, thinking that she'd be with the Gang. After a lot of calls, cause reception underground is really badddd, I finally figured out that she wasnt with the Gang. Well, that probably the only thing that has changed... I mean, people do tend to spend more time with their loved ones right? Haha. Because we havent met up for some time, due to our exams and such, I was thinking, are we even best friends anymore..? I mean, we were such close friends that we transended the friend thing into sisters.. But it turns out that nothing has changed.. Someth she said made me happy though, (even though I didnt tell her..), we are on the verge of a mini squabble (like usual) and she was like "...Why is my boyfriend and my best friend nagging at me about the same things.." It's not the topic we were 'discussing' that made me happy.. It was the reminder of 'best friend' that caused me joy.. Yeah, that's right. We're still, best friends.
Oh and the thing I was 'nagging' her about was actually about church.. Haha, and that's cause her dear and I are both Christians.. Whoa. LOL. But, I was just inviting her to our Christmas service... ROFL.
Oh yes. The celebration was at Cine Kbox. Seriously.. It was CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYY.!! The amount of screaming, jumping and dancing is tantamount to an earthquake. Jo is really cute, whenever she sees someone walk past our door, she turns in circles cause she doesnt want the person to see her face!!! IT'S SO FUNNY!! :DDDDDD FUNNNAYYYYY. Loves. You really have to be there to understand what I'm talking about. And Huiqing actually didnt sit down and watch us go crazy! She stood up! She actually stood up!!!!! The best friend has made an improvement :DDDDD Is that because you're training to go clubbing next year? -mildly suspicious- I was greatly entertained by Louisa, Yongxin & Jo's fantastic dance imitations. SUGEI. And because they decided to go to the Singapore River (despite me being reluctant..), Losa and I missed the last bus. And we took a cab home. And I got home at midnight. And was severely reprimanded by parents!!! D':
TODAY was fun too. After OUAP briefing which was fun by itself (The teacher approved of our event!!!YAY), after going to Councilroom to finish some unfinished stuff, I joined The Muggers' (sans a lot of people) for lunch. May Ching treated me to lunch cause I took care of her baby :D Oh and I don't need to hear more than I need to know... Ching Khang was shooting his mouth off as always.. Which pretty much ruined my mood for the following hours. Ugh. But I don't blame him cause he doesn't know anything, haha. And we had trouble calculating money.. SURPRISINGLY, IT WAS ME, THE HORRENDOUS PROMO U-GRADER MATH STUDENT WHO MANAGED TO CALCULATE OUT THE CHANGE. lolx. Yes, I passed Math overally but I actualy scored like 28.5 for Promo Math. Yesyes, I know that's like.. so pathetic. Actually, kinda proud that I managed to calculate out that tricky change.. :D Went to pets shop and played with hamster cages. LOL. Thinking of getting a few hamsters and buying a huge cage for them. HEE. -grins-
Okay, now my dad is shooting off weird stuff about documentaries like, "Oh, maybe there's a spaceship below...?" Which makes me laugh at that utter hilarious notion.
I'm so disappointed in my brother. When I told you to do the best in whatever you do, that wasn't what I meant.. I wish you would grow up soon, so that I too, can be somehow, a little proud of you. Sigh.
If you walk the footsteps of a stranger, then you'll learn things you never knew...
I had a meeting with the OUAP girls from Team D today. It was very enjoyable and I feel that we'd have a great trip together :DDDD The event that we decided on was fab too; we're so going to have fun!! I'm so glad I've got such a great team to work with (: Plus, Siewps and Vic are in the same team as me too!
HURHHHHHHH> I SAW YONGXIN IN SCHOOL! ZZZZZ. Okay, why that reaction. She was doing E-clubbu stuff. I never thought I would say this, but I missed her! Actually, I saw manymany familiar faces in school today. Like QianYun, YanXi etc etc Hahaha. This is the reaction of someone who has not seen her closest friends for days and is dying out. Luckily, today I got to hang out with Vic and Siewps! So, pretty happy. :DDDDDDDD
Humph. Come to think of it, the ultimate bestieZ (aka 7seven), esp leonghuiqing is still doing their poly exams.. Or not? Come on polys, you can churn out papers faster than that!
I got back my result slip today. AND IM TO PROUD TO SAY THAT I DIN FAIL ANYTHING! Overall. Well, it aint fantastic but here are the scores: 2 Bs (English Lit, GP) 2 Ds (Chinese, Geography) 2 Es (Econs, Math)
I have to say this though, my GP percentile is like 99.8% !!!!!! At first, I was like WTF? How is that humanly possible when all I got was a B? But than, our kind Yongxin explained things to me, like how it's level ranking and all or whatever. And I went, whoaaaaaaaaaa~ I was that close to 100%! Okay, that pisses me off, really. Cause B is the WORST kind of grade you can get, its so freaking close to an A but yet it's not like A, ARGH, the torment is so painful.. Lit percentile was good too, 95.2% ... Well, secretly I'm still pissed that I wasn't the highest in level for Lit, but I won't be a sore loser. I'd work harder, I swear. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Congrats to Yanli for getting the highest in Lit~ Everyth else's percentile IS NOT EVEN WORTH CONTEMPLATING.
My mum didnt even want to look at my results. ARGH, I'm sorry I didn't even work hard for Promos, okay? I know you guys always put so much hope on me, but I'm always letting you down. Before, it was because I didn't want to stay in SA, and I swore that even in JJ I'd get good results. I won't go back on my word. Swear. But considering that I was at 30% speed throughout the entire Promos period, I actually think that I have done better than what I thought I'd get though 30% . Oh and I love Ms Pereira, her comments for me were really really good. But I'm sure she did that for everyone else too :D
Yea Vic, I did say I'm a superly competitive person, well, I wasnt wrong about myself at least. In the face of adversaries, I always perform better. Because by nature, I'm such a lazy person -.- I need an 'engine' to keep me going. Now that my targeted opponents have emerged, well, from now onwards, I'm going at 70%. Can't go at 100% all the time, I'd get tired, LOL. My dear dear cousin is right, next year is the J2 year. If only we can fight on an equal standing, but well, we'd never been on an equal standing.. You being in VJ and all. Good luck. Theneed to move faster, and beyond.
one who doesnt focus on the present, has no right to talk about the future..
Even though I said I didn't want to sleep, in the end, I did. -.- Well, I'm only human afterall.
Right! But at least I managed to do SOMETHING fruitful. I actually packed my table! :D Andandand, I'm going to buy PROPER FILES to store all my work.. I can't find the big files that my maid claims to be in the big white cupboards.. DOT. Hm. I can't stand being disorganized, but sometimes, I'm disorganized on purpose.. Nevermind. I'm not making any sense, am I? It's like how, sometimes my phone goes flat and I forget to charge it.
I'm going to call my friends later. I feel kinda... detached from the world. LOLS. I absolutely refuse to become a hermit. But then, most of them are busy with examinations.. and Yongxin will most likely kill me for disturbing her precious 7-9 TV watching time. Sigh. OHHHHHHHHH! Yabe. I missed the gathering last friday, again. I think the Gang got tired of reminding me, LOL.
Somehow, I lost Siewps library book without knowing it. Why am I feeling kinda depressed again? Sigh. Sorry le. Somehow, (again) I will drag my savings out to pay for the fines. Are you mad at me? I hope not. :(((((((((((((((((((((( edit: okay, she isn't.
It was a boring day.
EDIT: NEED TO CALL GIRLFRIENDS OUT, NOW. loneliness is killing me. ARGH. oh, hahaha, sorry K, forgot that you're not a girlfriend! But you're included too:D 7sevennnnnnnnnnnnnnn. When are all your poly exams going to be ovarhh???
After taking medicine, things are actually swirling around me now. I feel like sleeping. But I don't give a damn. -laughs- Sleeping this early in the morning after I've woken up is a total waste of time, so I won't do it. It's different when I'm still sleeping and I feel like continuing my sleep. Head hurts, boo~ Even so, reading about fandom news makes me happy :D Will post personal squees on Vox later.
Yay, Toma in Honey&Clover! :DDDDDDD And there's a new Arashi CM for C1000. And I havent been listening to Matsujun's radioshow lately.. I've been busy. Sigh. Oh, and I've gotten NewS' latest song releases! :DDDDDDD Thankyou jesummary, haha. Still waiting for my AAA Dome DVD from Japan.. GR.
Yeesh. Mum's yelling at me to get off the com and go to sleep. Ciao.
I have very bad wake-up timing. And my sister complains about my phone alarm song. It's Arashi's Pikanchi Double. She was like "I do love Pikanchi Double, but if you hear it every single morning, first going 'bezz bezz' cause its vibrating on the table, and than 'da da da ra da de da' (that's PikanchiDouble's opening notes) and then 'minna atta mane ichi' , I feel like stranging Nino everytime." Shiat. -laughs- Cause Nino's voice is the most prominent on the opening lyrics. Sorry, Nino. To save you from my sister's deathly fingers, I shall change my alarm song. But I cannot not have an alarm clock. I will never, never, wake up. LOL. I save my sister's ears from Pikanchi Double on schooldays, cause Dad wakes me up on schooldays, LOL. Come to think about it, the song was Smack That by Akon before. And she screamed at me about it too. ROFL. Sorry. I need the alarm. Holidays are different. I can sleep until 1 pm.
Today, I woke late today cause I was so depending on Xue Ting's call to wake me up, to be safe I even set the alarm at 7 am. But it never came. -.- Know why? Phone went flat in the middle of the night and I never received the call nor the alarm. Thank you Xue Ting and Gabriel for waiting for me. We were practically running into church. Everything was in a blur, I could just see loads of ushers and church members around me. So I grabbed onto Xue Ting's hand so that we wont lose each other and dragged her over to the choir area. Lols. Gabriel that brat, he was being so slow!!!!! Plus he's small-sized, so everytime I turn around to check that he's still following diligently, I can't see him. (Oops, I'd get killed if he sees this.) Sometimes I snap at him, "Gabriel, hurry up!" I shouldn't have. Sorry. -apologetic smile-
Saw Samantha after such a longgggg time. She changed to an adult cell group. Kinda miss her :( I really want to try her cooking too! Sigh. First familiar face in service I saw was Benedict, as usual. LOL. Cause he's serving as an usher, so it's pretty easy to catch him around the entrance or the terrace areas. Anyways, ushers were wearing formal clothes today. Cool la. Oh, and Ben ar. Sorry la, SA shirt still not in your hands. :( Cause rushed out of house today. ARGH. I SWEAR I WILL REMEMBER TO BRING IT NEXT WEEK, NEXT WEEEEEKKK. And and, today's service is the coolest ever!!!!! It was like 3.5 hours? Cause Pastor Olf and this singer called Carola from Sweden was here, so we had a longggg Praise, and then the Word, than Praise again, as usual, den mini concert by Carola. She's great la. Really must check her songs out.
Feel guilty again la. Today should have gone over to grandma's place with Dad. Cause tired, so fell asleep at the clubhouse lounge while mum went to run. She packed me dinner from her house. You know, sometimes when Dad tells her I'm coming over but I end up being busy or smth, she would prepare alotalotalot of things to eat just cause I was supposed to come over. Grandma's great. And I love her loads. I'm her favorite granddaughter, and I also happen to be her oldest granddaughter by the surname of Lian. Also, notoriously known as the never-early-daxiaojie. >< I really must go over next week. I miss my little cousins too, haha. But so many of my family members are overseas la, even gugu is in Shanghai. Gomenasai grandma, next week I will definitely go over. Muarh.
Howl's Moving Castle rocks. I re-watched it, through it's in English now. I greatly prefer the nihon-go version but that's maybe cause I'm biased. Ahahahaha. Um. Same sentiments as usual, Howl rocks, Sophie rocks, music rocks = Joe Hisashi rocks, Studio Ghibli is the king, no other anime maker can be as good as Studio Ghibli. Hoho. So, watch it. :D Another Japanese anime that's not really anime, greatly recommended, is Spirited Away. Can you believe I was so scared when I watched Spirited Away for the first time, when I was twelve? It was at Bee jie's house and I remember I was literally sobbing cause it was so "scary". To me, it was then. Ah, how people change. Neeways, they're both awesome.
I'm so so so damn exhuasted. Despite just standing at the pitch, for a few hours. Helped out at the ISSAC event today, which stands for International and Singapore Schools Atheletic(sp?whatevr) Championships. Right. A really long name. Basically, its the soccer championships for kids twelve and below. It's really quite encouraging to watch how kids strive to run faster, kick better, score goals, outsmart their opponents throughout the game. Cause Pengs & I were ball people for pitch 2, we got bored at the last game and started talking to each other instead of staring at the game. Oops. Although their angles were pretty much off most of the time, there were some really good players. Quote Elwin: Kranji number 10! I don't even know his name though... Hahah. I could kinda imagine my lil brother running around like that, though he's more interested in basketball. Haha. Jun, go join soccer, now. It's an order from your almighty older sister, hahahaha.
I was late for cell group, though. It's at Peter's place today. Luckily, I didnt get lost like I always do for Joraine's although I did take the wrong train... I was too damn tired and checked the map for Sembawang station and wandered off to the wrong platform. It took me to Bukit Gombak, and I was sooo totally, (&^*%$^!!!! Cherie, you're so not cognizant of your surroundings. Yay. Oh, and I didnt see Joraine again!!!! I think she's working or something. But still, we always miss each other!! Like 2 weeks ago, I went for service and she didnt. Last week, she went for service and I didnt. And this week she wasnt there for cell but I was. Should go message her later.. Janice's wedding is coming soon! :D I'M SO HAPPY FOR HER! And I really miss her too. I havent seen her in ages la. It's on the 25th, just four days before I fly. :D
I have a Japanese test on the 25th too. And I have to go all the way to The Japanese School (Primary) at Changi. How fun is that? I have to score well, cause if I do, you won't see me for a week next year :D I'd be in Japan! HAHAHAAAAAA. If.
Okay. Freaking tired. Filming is cancelled tomorrow which is kinda good, cause I'm really really not in a mood to give my acting best. Right.
Jason finally remembered my birthday passed. Che. He does that every year. Some years, he remembers on the day but some years, he takes one month to tell me happy belated. LOL. He remembered on the date last year. Yay Jason. Btw, he's my Pri 6 best friend. HAHA. Not bad right. I still have a friend left from Pri 6 :D
Come to think about, I really miss my 7seven sisters. Sigh.
誰かは生命に達成したすべてが夢を達成できればべきならも、幸運である。 One is lucky, even if all they achieved in life is to be able to fulfill their dreams.
Okay, Bambino has a surprise. Ban is made to work in the dining area, instead of the kitchen!! Whoa. That sure was a surprise, for me at least.
Harumph. Need cash. To buy books and stuff, hahaha. Argh. I'm too lazy to go find a job. Was supposed to actually go for an interview with Ee, but well, someone screwed that up. -BIGSACARSTICSMILE- I can't name names here, especially someone's, otherwise TONS of people will bash me and bashing is not nice, no? And the both of us kinda forgot about going for that interview, LOL.
Actually, I so shouldnt be concerned about this. My father just nagged me about Econs, which remembered me about Maths. Shiat. The other day I practiced Math till 2 am, which I have never done in my lifetime. HMMMM. Cherie is changing, eh? But it's still mucho sian for me.
Weekends are taken up by plenty of events, council, filming, church and stuff. Oh.. YES, I havent updated about filming eh? It was awesome, will update this coming monday. Cause the next filming is scheduled this Sunday. And I have to remember my lines, haha. :D But it's fun.
Again, another episode of Bambino watched. I can't describe the love I have for this drama series. It inspired me, beyond any other jdorama that I have watched, even Hana Yori Dango. It does exhilarate me & it reminds me of the CANT-DO attitude I have, that Ban had before he got used to the life in Baccanale. I hate this feeling, this No longer, no longer will I stop trying, when I know I can do it, I can do it. Enlightenment; it's a punch in my face, kinda like a voice going, "What are you doing!!!???!!! HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ABOUT PERSERVERANCE, DETERMINATION? It is the choices you make that matter! Have you forgotten, or are you simply ignorant!" Yes, I am ignorant. There's so much to learn, too much to learn. That's why, no one should ever give up.
Joon said something that I remembered: "Reading should be a hobby, it should be a lifestyle." Aye. To remain au fait in the current events, in Council events, in class events, in family events, in my beloved friends' events, sure is difficult, eh. Though reading has nothing to do with the above four events, I should still continue my habit of reading. Maaaaaaaaa ne. ~ GP yo. To be au courant, to be cognizant of our everyday shortcomings and the solutions to the problems that arise in life, it's a simple rule that governs the world. A rule that once followed, does not guarantee constant success, but guarantees that we would be able to solve our failures and move on, to what lies ahead. The world isn't simple; it is cruel. That is why, we should be unrivaled in what we are best at, but not indispensible, because to be indispensible is to be selfish. There's a difference, isn't there?
When Ban (Ban in Bambino) cried because he had to leave Baccanale, hence, it rendered his dream to cook as well as the others, unfulfilled, I shared his tears. In all, to understand the loss of one's dream, perhaps, I am the best candidate for that role. So many many great dreams unfulfilled; some will never be fulfilled. I told myself, it's okay, come on, move on. Isn't that what I always tell myself? We have to move on, don't we. We have to keep on going. Tomorrow will be a brighter day. To name the number of my dreams, little ones, big ones, unfulfilled; there's just too many. I don't know if it's because I've done something wrong, or complacency is often the mistake or perhaps, my Loving God meant it to be so. But God, my dreams, should be Your dreams too, right? You love us, because we are Your children, so like a Father, You only wish the best for us, isn't it? But God, I always ask, when will my dreams be fulfilled, God? When will it be my turn, God? I'm impatient, Lord forgive me, but God, it is this nature of mine that led me to doubt You. I can't say, Devil, I command you to cast away these doubts of my Father, God of all Gods, Father of the Earth, King of his Kingdom. I can't. They return to me, time and time again. It's because, from the bottom of my heart, from the depth of my soul, I do so feel this way. I do feel lost, I feel forgotten, I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel that it's not impossible. The faithless has no home, God does not answer the faithless. Perhaps, that is where, I have gone wrong, all along. Lord, Lord, forgive me, for I am nothing, nothing, but an ignorant child, lost and confused, frightened and afraid, that her dreams will be shattered into stardust again, so much so that, she would do anything, in the world, to protect them, no matter how silly, how stupid it may seem, they will come true. I will go to Cambridge.
Through it all, you are a nothing but a child in the eyes of the ancient world, groping her way in the darkness, until you find the light.
there's nothing such as too hard, or too tough, nothing too difficult for the empowered & the envisioned.
I M POSSIBLE. hm.
Drat, I missed the Vivitar Camera sale again. Crap. I wanted to bring it along to Xi'An, so that my family can enjoy the glorious sights, HAHA. The effects that camera makes is awesome. Tsk. Never mind, there will be another sale :D
My dearest mother is obsessed with vinegar! The other day she bought aLOT of Japanese special vinegar and mixed vinegar, and she added them to my juice just now. It's tasted fine, just with a tangy aftertaste and as I got to the bottom of the cup, it got stronger and had a sharper taste to it. It actually tastes a bit like apple cider, which I must comment that my mother also possesses in her kitchen cupboards.
I think being a pilot is scary, but then again, its how you handle the responsibility of being a pilot and whether you can live up to it, that really matters.
Maych's baby just bit me. It's a super deep cut and I screamed at the bloody hamster for that. LOL. But anyway, it bit me! GRRRRRRR. I'd let your owner handle you when she gets back. GR.
So. After putting off a lot of things BEHIND MY BACK, they're going to return to me soon. SIGH. I kinda miss my friends. Kinda? I mean, really. This always happens every holiday..
Guess what, yesterday was the twerp's birthday. Happy belated 15th, love. Aw, little sister's all grown up now (: We had a slamming party, at the clubhouse and all, with this humongous cake and all, lounging by the poolside, taking crazy photos with mum's friends and Michellina. It was fun, even if it wasnt as glamourous as an 18th birthday would have been. So. I didn't forget your birthday, even if you thought I did.. I just havent bought you a birthday present, hahaha. But all you need is a hug from me to show my love, right? So here's a virtual HUGGGGGGG. Muarh.
I liked the cake.
Mum had fun mooning about how I absolutely refused to enter this toilet in UK because it was kinda run down and all. Helooooo. You have to look at the person you're talking about you know. I've never lived in anywhere but the city. PS, that part of the United Kingdom was a certain countryside petrol station toilet, hence, the ew-ness. Most parts of the UK are really damn lovely :D 'Cept for that one toilet.
You know, I've been thinking. I've seen too many of my little dreams getting crushed. What with H3 lit and all, but that was my fault too, I decided for myself that I didnt want it. But nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing is going to stand in my way of A levels. No one can understand how much I want to study overseas, just, no one. Next year is going to be a scary year, but I'd be scarier. Becoming an official mugger sure isn't my idea of fun. But it's the ticket to a different world.
Still, I'd be turning 18 next year. Now, that is my idea of fun. :D
RAWR>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> -kills someone on a virtual gaming ground- Yay, maplestory. NOT. Halflife 2 rocks my socks.
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