I havent really realised in a while how illness can screw you up and hang you upside down and you dont even know.
Yeah.
The other day, I was crossing the darn road and you know how roads have traffic lights and road crossing lights and what not. Oh yeah and they sometimes face each other too.
So here I was feeling a little goggy and giddy and staring at nothing in particular when bing! Green light catches my eye, so I start to walk.
HORNBANGSMASH*! Oh, green light for a lot of speeding cars not slow sick pedestrians like me.
And here concludes the fateful event that almost secured a kick to the bucket.
Brilliant.
Im glad my mother grounded me. You never know when I might cluelessly try to kill myself again.

AND ANYWAYS, I BOUGHT A LAPTOP WITH A S3 CHROME GRPHICS CARD.
YOU MEAN I DIDNT NOTICE WHEN I SCANNED THE SPECS???!
Oh yes you did not. Puck man.
Sigh. Never mind, no graphic heavy games for this baby then.

The other day when I met up with the best friend, I had a sudden revelation why she's my best friend.
She can spot my ex boyfriends from a mile away, haha!
Nah, the real reason is this: the truth sets you free. (:

Illness really does gives you such a semi-conscious view of the world.