flowers bloom by road's way, even as thorns adorn the footpath you take to journey's end.

I thought speaking words of faith means that it will always remain.
And I saw a illusion of greatness only to have it crumble into ashes.
And I still need to work harder, work better.
Because my dreams are my world and when one wants something bad enough, I believe one has the capacity to go all the way for it.
Still, it's very exhuasting but heck, we'd prevail! :D

My cousin is returning from the USA after another term of university life.
We aren't really close but I've always admired him for his strength to strive and his determination to do his best no matter the circumstances.
Academically, I have to say that he has to be my personal idol because he's just so good at what he does and I really do do do admire his capacity so very very much.
So, a long long long time ago, when I was much younger, I told myself, "Cherie, you're going to be like Xijie, at his level or better."
I can't wait for him to return because I can't wait to see if he has changed or if, well, he has learnt new things that he can tell us younger cousins.
But knowing him (hahahah), he'd be very much into relaxing back here and maybe I'd see another round of DOTA at his place. :D
And yes, I kinda miss him which is weird because I haven't seen Xijing (his brother) in so long and I don't really miss him that much!
Probably because Xijing is such a prick and like, he's always always trying to annoy me.
Okay, I have to admit that he's gotten nicer these few years.
Maybe it's because I don't have older siblings that I look up to my older cousins?
Who knows.

I really
I really
I really want to be amazing like Xijie.
Mum has never really understood why I'm so competitive.
It's because it feels like, when I falter, that I'd never be as good, never be as great, as capable as many of my older cousins.
I mean, I'm serious, all of them are like.. prodigies.
Good at what they're good at. I guess it's just another trait I'm trying to emulate.
Yeah, so I'm used to all the YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH talk to the point that I'm immune.
When I look at my older cousins, inspiration comes in doves.
I will be someone great like them.
Someone who is somebody.

Am I putting on a front?
You asked that question so I'm gonna try answer that.
Yeah, maybe.
Sometimes, even as tears prick at my eyes and play mockeries with my anger, I'd still smile because I don't think anyone should see tears that they should not see.
Yet, hiding in a corner to cry can be pretty lonely.
Actually the last time I cried was in front of my entire class because I couldn't take it anymore.
So, I wouldn't say I put on a front because my emotions are very blatant.
They're always, like, there. Beyond the surface of everything.
So, I don't know?
You tell me (:

It's a struggle but I'd always loved challenges worth challenging.


I MISS MY GIRLFS VEH VEH VEH MUCH.
maybe i've relied on them too much, after all we were together for virtually 4 yrs.
but i can't i can't forgot the fact that we had so much fun tgr. we were really really a group of 7 best friends.
i really really hate the reality that the world revolves and things change.
and i really
miss them.
:(

Liek O.M.G , Twilight trailer-ed on MTV!!
omg i can't wait, i can't wait, i can't wait!
Robbie Pattz!!!! 8DDDDDDDDD
AND OMG, I LOVE EMMENT!
-big sloppy kiss-

Miss girlfs. :(
TG not helping. :(
To crud with it.

I think some people really need to reinvent their speech patterns :D
Maybe it was done unconsciously but it really insulted me.
And the worst thing?
You're probably my greatest eyesore.
Ugh.

Yay. I overcame my greatest fear today: SBJ!
Actually, 155 cm is SO not amazing but YAY nonetheless :D

VEHVEHVEHVEH ENTERTAINED by deedee, joy to the world and hee-ma today :D
I love my friends!
BTW, I realised I have a knack for pointing out the good points of everyone, no matter how irritating or annoying or extremely hated he/she is.
Like, I mean like, Kim Jung Il has good taste in music at least :D HAHAHAH.

YOUKNOWWHO:} you go girl!

I love my life (:

It doesn't matter to me who it is or who it will be.
I believe in doing the best in whatever you do, even if I do stumble and fall.
Well! It's not about when and how you fall down but it's about whether you get up again.
In believing in this, it really made me a whole lot happier :D

I had a very entertaining day.

maybe one day we'd all look back with a sigh, and say out loud, "Those were halcyon days."

I'm pretty much happy with my life now.
Figures.
Because I was always happiest when doing my best :D

BTWBTWBTWBTWBTW:
I WASN'T WRONG ABOUT ITACHI!
Sasuke must feel like an idiot now. -.-


Feed me gossip, people! :D

There is only one that knows the end, the beginning and the way.

JIAYOU! A LVLS ARENT FAR AWAY!

Things that I've learnt: Politics exist, right under our noses.
There are some things one has to live with but fear not!
There is naught to fear from them when one has nothing to contend with the likes of them :D
It's a sudden revelation; to me, that people like G and V aren't worth the time, or space, or brainpower to fret over!
Their prattling will bring some kind of an aftermath to them in future, for even in Buddhism, they say karma goes around.
I believe the Lord is faithful (:

Wow.
Change is a good thing!

yog dinner was great :D
loved the company, the ambience and the minister's superb speech.
To stand by the people, in good times and bad.
In any place in the world, I'm sure one is inclined to agree that this is the kind of leader one strives to become or to elect!
for once, i am proud of s'pore.

We, the citizens of Studentism, strive to write awesome GP essays and intelligent argumentative rebuttals, with an omnipresent awareness of the world Economy! We vow to analyze and mull over Geography in both human and physical contexts and to provide accurate and un-asinine answers to Mathematical milestones and to achieve our four As and a sure-fire route to Oxbridge.

I was being crazy. :D

Oh, we also ensure that our CIP bank is overflowing with expressions of goodwill (:

I love my bestie! (:
I've got to have the best BEST FRIEND in the whole world! :D
You never fail to perk me up after a down day.
Thank you for always being there for me.

dashdashdash, we'd be the flash that passes you by

So many things to say, so little inspiration to pour them out to the world.
Crying while praying to God during worship to save Darfur and Tibet was not on my agenda but it happened.
People would call that emotional.
Oh, I don't know. I just feel that when one knows how to put oneself in another's shoes, perhaps you'd reach the unattainable (:

I remember you best when you were silver and black diamond, with a face of nonchalance and a stride of somebody finding his place in the world.
Right now, I don't know how to put this in your face when it's so sporadic.
P was right when she repeated, heartbreak, in short soft terms.
I'm sorry.
I don't want to say anything because this premature stop is a warning: take everything away.
I'm sorry.
I guess we never really move on.
But thank you because you were one of the few that could say so little and make me laugh with all my heart.

making stupid question marks in the air was fond memories of halcyon days

Memories Of Nobody is a really really really sad Bleach movie.






Despite all, I'm really happy because I feel so loved by God and I know he works in ways we can't see and don't know!
The numerous hidden blessings he has given us will be revealed, part by part.
So, let's be patient :D

i fell in love with the wrong sun.
and i thought it was the moon.


I'm very excited for the next batch of councilors!
All of them look like they have plenty of potential indeed :D
I was very impressed by the China scholars; I applaud them on their bravery to speak out to a crowd despite their unfamiliar command of English (:
Numerous events transpired today.
I kinda regret letting it carry on as long as it as but we've decided to do something about it so let's strive hard to achieve a united front once more :D
GO OWENS!

The best way to deal with uncalled for racism is to speak to them in Chinese. :D
I'm so glad my mom made me continue to educate myself in my mother tongue.

pique-peeke-peek-a-boo

Still stressed.
Still fat.
Still sunburnt.

Great.