YTD, i had a lot of fun with my best friend at Orchard (we shopped, we ate, we cammed (alittle), we whined, we watched, we stoned :D)
but it got me into a lot of trouble with dad and mum too. D:
but nvrm! its okay because i was just being me and they were just being them.
my june's resolution is to listen to my parents. HA.
but i wonder if i can really achieve that.
im a little contemptous and a little arrogant, i know.
i like to live in my part of the world instead of YOURS.
haven't it always been this way?
and im sorry i called you when you were in Saudi and in the hot sweltering sun because honest to God, i was anticipating your return.

ICANTWAITUNTILMY18THBIRTHDAYWHEREICANGET
ALICENSETODRIVEANDACTUALLYGOCLUBBING! :D
best friend will come with me (:
love you!

yeayea, and then maybe money will drop out of the sky D:
because D & M will never allow the word 'club' to even happen.

im trying to be a little more mature but i think its really hard to understand how parents function as a overprotective entity.
i'll just make sure i wouldnt step on their toes the next time.

plugged : fvoisine.livejournal.com (somewhere a little more personal)

nothing on earth worth dying for.

IM FREAKING IRRITATED NOW, SO MUCH THAT I REALLY FEEL LIKE KICKING SOMETH.
OOPS. YEAH, ITS MY BLOODY FAULT, DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE A MOUNTAIN OUT OF A TEENY MOLEHILL? JUST BECAUSE ITS YOU AND YOU LIKE TO VENT, DONT YOU.
YES, POINT TAKEN ACROSS, SO SHUT UP AND HIDE YOURSELF IN THAT HOLE YOU BUILT FOR CRAWLING UNDER.
URGH.
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT PISSES ME OFF?
HA. too bad you've got me to talk against.

i would have apologised if you didnt just shut up and asked me why.
but i wont, because its you.
too bad.



im going to watch a movie.

WESTZONE camp is over :D and it was quite successful.
well, i've learnt so much about so many things that I must say that i've really enjoyed doing this with everyone.
there are many ameliorations that can be done but let's strive for greater heights, 27th, and let us only rise and never fall.
RISE WITH FAITH! (:
our invest theme which will hold true.

i totally slept my day away today.
was awakened at 7.50 am today by my Chinese teacher to do my listening compre.
like ARGH!
but nvrm. cabbed down to school.
paid more than usual becos of the stupid surcharge D:
i finally went to get my O lvl cert!!!
It looks very nice (:
loads of As, three Bs and no Cs or Ds! :DDDD
quite happy.

i'd be back frm thailand on the 24th and on the 25th, school reopens!
LIKE NOOOOOO.
complete bummer but its okay (:

tmr got lecture test.
D:

Do you know how sometimes you love someone so much you would die for them?
Yet, on others times, you just feel like leaving their side.
I can't stand living here anymore.

IVE SO HAD ENOUGH!

stop threatening me with death because whatever you say, its not like im going to back down.

save me from this place.

FACS CAMP IS OVER. WESTZONE IS NEXT. :D
well, so we didnt really achieve all that we set out to do, but im really glad that everyth went well. (:
27th, now that we know our mistakes, let's learn from them and climb to greater heights!

i know sorry isn't enough but i still want to say it because I still feel bad about it all. im sorry.

anyway. now I know the way I sit is completely wrong because the grand seniors made me practice walking and sitting for a longgggg time after invest rehearsal.
i think its in the blood. D:
but i will practice and become a better sitter and walker. LOL.
they were really nice about it too.
so, thanks !

OMYGOSH.
I HAVE FOUR TESTS NEXT WEEK, NTU INTERNSHIP PROJ TO COMPLETE, CHI COMPO NOT DONE AND DUE TMR, MATHS TUT/ASSIGNMENT 7 DUE ON TUES, INVESTITURE ON THURS, WESTZONE DECO TO COMPLETE, WESTZONE LOG TO BUY, WESTZONE CAMP!
its a challenge. AND I CAN DO IT! :D
JIAYOU!!!!!
and im not slacking now: doing internship project. (:

but that means i cant go to andrea's bdae on fri, cant go shopping with mum on fri and im going to miss out so much!
i missed video-taking ytd too. :(
i cant apologise enough to my friends but i hope you understand.
i miss you guys a million too.

i saw Liw's comment to me on friendster.
do you know when i saw it i cried?
ILOVEYOUTOO.

IWISHIHADTHEGUTSTOSAY, you make me smile.

MY dad was really funny, just.
I said smth to him like, "I'd follow you" because he was going to get some stuff.
And then he replied, "What, to Saudi?"
:DDDDDDD HAHAHA. it was really humorous!
omg, i love my dad so much.
Yea, and he's leaving for Saudi Arabia soon, hence the comment.
I think he thinks about work too much. D:
but man, I wldnt mind going to Saudi la.
HAHA! take me take me.

i'll be glad when im on that flight, away.

anticipating the 2nd of june. :D

if i could escape and recreate a place that's my own world

yup! today was fun!
because SCDC met up with the Westzone facilitators!
I like them all! :D
Can't wait to start on DECO actually. but the log list is giving me a headache.
but never mind that. :D
im so excited for this camp already!

BTW. I LOVE VIC FOR SAYING THAT IM NICE SO MANY TIMES AND SAYING THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH SOMEONE WLD DISLIKE ME AT THE START, I'D WIN THEM OVER WITH MY NICE-NESS. THANK YOU DARLING!
-SUPERbigHUG-
im sorry i cldnt meet you at the library today D:
the meeting ended late.
nvrm! we'd hang someother time soon okay! :D

omygosh.
im so happy today.

i have a test on thurs!
damn.
HAHA.

sugar's dead but you're still kind of cute.

I HATE BEING ILL.
IM NOT GONNA PRETEND ANYMORE.
down with the act.

Why can't we even speak properly w/o fighting?

Sometimes we're too absorbed in what we do, that we lose sight of what we came here to achieve.
Too much inertial gaucherie that it hurts.

all because of YOU.

Im dead tired today.
I realised how much Eevin and I can click!
HAHA.
thanks babe for letting me 'manipulate' you :D

yaaaaaaaa.
so many tests next week la.
i cant think of anyth else to say.

gambatte des!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STELLA, NOI AND CHARLESTON(again)!
I had a lot of fun with you guys :D
Esp with Stella, Deepa and company.
I realised that Eng Tong and YuKai can really sing!!
Engtong, JJ superstar it's already yours! :D
Stella is really fantabulous, she can do dialect songs! Wow.
:D
So cool.

Charleston is abandoning me tmr because he has band. D:
How could you! I need you to wake me up in lectures! And to teach me when I'm blur and all!
Grrr. I really rely on you a lot la.
Basically because we move arnd tgr 3/4 of the time in school, I got used to it.
I mean like we're the only 2 4 h2 students in the entire Arts cohort?
Bleh. Tomorrow is going to be so boring.

I want to say sorry to KY because she says I always walk past her w/o saying hello!
Im so sorry but I think I really didnt see you. D:
Sometimes Im just so caught up in my world or just too troubled that I stare straight and just walk. I probably do that to loads of pple everyday.
And now everyone is angry at me D:
Haha. No la.
Im not being snobbish alright! Really didnt see you.
Plus, I hate these glasses! When I look from the corner of my eye, all I see is blur shapes!
Give me my contacts back! GR.




i remember when home was a time when Mum and Dad was always there
And it was warm and free
With the smiles of my beloved people
But I wonder
How does one live
When your closest are forever never by your side
I wish the most evilest of things
That the adult life was never invented
Far far far far away
Let the fireplace be lit again
I remember happier days elsewhere
Because
Do you know, I really miss you all so?

I'm falling ill and nanny is making me drink Chicken's Essence everyday.
URGH.
There was a lot of sad sad sad things that happened yesterday and today.
I was really really down yesterday.
And I'm glad Xiao Wei was by my side because w/o her and the love of God, I think I may have broken down really badly.
Dad was again.. in the office. He didnt come home until 2.
I know because I didnt sleep.
There's so many things I want to say.
Like, maybe I can pretend to be in a normal family for once and come home and say Hey Dad, guess what happened today, blablabla.
I just want to say.. IM REALLY SICK OF THIS.
16 years of being surrounded by FOUR WALLS.
sometimes the silence really gets to me.
I still put on a smile everyday. It's getting harder.
Why didnt you let me stay in Birmingham with Aunt?
I really want to go back home.

I had fun today like all other days :D
That's because the people I hang out with ARE COOL. and super nice :D
i loveeeee nad! cos she makes me laugh !
And Charleston does too, althro his favourite pasttime is also to call me shortie and to laugh at my lack of mathematical skills.

ohooh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLESTON AND AMANDA! you guys are like so much older than me alrdy LA. hahaha. uncle, auntie :D
Charleston actually replied my msg by (thanking me) and calling me shortie!
GRRRR.
im not that short! HAHA.

Yayyyy. im feeling pyro (hema's term) today BECAUSE i've been hearing so many crazy things about YOU that i dont know wad to believe anymore.
YAAAAA. im super impressionable.
EEVIN EVIL LEE SHOULD TELL ME SMTH BUT SHE'S MAKING ME WAIT UNTIL CHURCH MEETING!
I really love you, you know.
HOW COULD YOU! haha.
evilevil.

I give up way too easily.

Edsmond and I are arguing about whether I went to the BBQ and the chalet.
Omigosh! WHY ARE WE ARGUING OVER THAT!
HAHA. it's funny to see how my friends have NOT changed. :D
its a good feeling. :D

2a gatherings are always SO cool.
We have BBQs in the rain and the DARK.
I think we've probably done it all LA. no one can beat us.
we even have chalets at the most ulu-est spots. LOL
EDS PROMISES ANOTHER GATHERING!! ahahaha.

TODAY. I had a good time at NUS Raffles Musuem althro I feel for the poorpoorpoor animals.
I had fun with Deepa, Charleston and Keerti too!
we talked a lot, didnt we? :D
and im so glad i know them loads better now. haah.

im freaking procrasinating, complaining about it and not doing ANYTH about it. LOL.