just watched .
It was SUPER FUNNY and somewhat reminded me of someone i know.
HAHAHA.
YES YOU
Nah, I think you're alot nicer. ((((:
That poor lady, I can't imagine putting up with a jerk like that everyday.


OHOH!!! I GO HOME BEFORE 7 EVERYDAY.
uh huh, yup yups, eehheh.
because I will CRY if I miss HANAKIMI.
The other day, I was racing to reach my bestie's house in time ( because I was freaking late) BUT when I saw that it was ALMOST 7, i completely sprinted there.
And landed myself in the middle of the hall, eyes glued to the screen.
YA!!
butitsokaybecauseigettoseewuzunandthat'sallicare. xDDDDD

im going out everyday.
because my besties miss me.
AHA. oh the arrogance!
nah, im too free that im starting to read my notes!
ohmygosh.
frankly,
the anxiety's biting at me really.
Fate keeps me wondering on the hands It'd deal.
I hope I get a good deck. (((:

I suffered from a slightslight bout of depression.
THEN, i heard this song going <..It's the moment that you remember you're alive..>
And i was all, YEAH, im alive and kicking, What's there to be depressed about?
I've always loved myself, good and bad, its all me.
When i hear some horrible stuff people do to themselves, I feel completely bewildered.
It blows me to think that someone would hurt themself delibrately.
I can't imagine how God might feel.
I do wish everyone would love themselves.
You are distinct, too unique to be compared and once you see that, one realises how very special a person is.
On a lighter note, MY BEST FRIEND LOVES HERSELF MORE THAN SHE LOVES ANYTH ELSE.
AHAHA. even thro she claims to love her dog more than anyth.

righht! off to get some shuteye!

rose | 0 rose(s) on your door

sometimes i really despise my family.
can't they see that what they emulate is everyth they never wanted to be.
why is it that everyone else has such supportive family but mine is just never that way.
IMPOSSIBLE is their fucking excuse for everything.
YEAH DAD, that's why its so bloody IMPOSSIBLE for you to get what you dream for.
YAY, thank you for that fantastic advice.
i'd be sure NOT to listen to it.

they really love to make me feel lousy.

im so stuck at home with my piano.
argh.
cant go and bake cookies at jia's house cos of piano lessons.
oh man.
HAHA. but i cant live w/o my piano.
so contradictory ya?
sometimes i wish i was more talented at music, like zhongru or victoria, because that's just so amazing, the way they do what they do.
Oh well. God has his reasons. (:

this acid equanimity is killing me.
Like I'm in a limbo and running across serrations that really hurt.
I miss loads of people, loads of things, wondering about that other life
Rawr.
Click and whirl, my mind reminds me to find joy in these small miracles
and to stop brooding over things I cant control.

Pigging out everyday.
xD

I got eleven!!! for r5.
Sort of worse and better than what I thought it would be.
my initial aim was 8 but when i got to the hall, i was thinking of getting 15 and 16 or whatever.
just my mind running crazy.
practically my whole family called me and i was being busy calling them back.
ahhaahha.
right now, cherie's a happy girl! XDD

i have like six days to think it over.

yup.

bestie!! we shld like go out sometime soon!

lovely life.

(incomplete post written on e 7th feb)

love fiesta planning comm has officially disbanded.
i wont be working with the same pple again and i really wish scdc peeps all the best in their future endeavors.
i know some who are planning to go become ogls, others who want to go the log comm and so on.
from e bottom of my heart, i wish you all well & keep in contact !!
xD

we had revelations today.
omygoodness. i cried like there was no tmr.
esp when keerti asked me (while crying), "You dont want to leave us because you love us right?"
I cried even harder when I heard what she said.
YES, OG2!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!
i know all tt crap about sch selection where its all your choice and all.
but sometimes, there is just no other way.
i LOVE my og and my ogls.
you guys gave me so much and i want to always always give smth back.
so ya, there's not enough iloveyou's that i can say,
so i pray that we will stay as one, always.

apple taught us a new cheer!!!
hahaha.

oh wow, results are coming out this friday.
for some reason, im not really very nervous.
just sort of debating whether or not i shld stay in jj.
there isnt much factors to consider actually.
all of them point to staying.
but my dad has been expecting me to leave jj.
blehhhh.
i dont know. just determined to give this a gd thought over.

hema! this sweetie gave me the silliest fright ever.
the girl poured tinner over her hands! to remove the paint.
argh, MA do you ever listen in chem??
oh my gosh.
her hands were all pale and white and everyth.
we called the ambulance for her.
sounds a bit extreme right? but we were really so worried for her!
corrosion isnt anyth to play arnd with.
she's waiting at the hospital now.
poor darl, it'd been 2 hrs or more on e waiting list.
(a&e just sucks sometimes)
stay strong, 'ma! we're always behind you, beside you, in front, whichever you prefer!

love fiesta ended on sat.
it was quite fun and all.
my picture on my tag sucks!!!!! LOL.
i mean like, really. they stretched it!!
i ate alot, hahaha. xD
my class made a small profit but it doesnt matter how much we made, really,
cos as long as we know tt effort has been given and it has not gone to waste.
so to ___ who feels ___, its really alright.
im actually guessing feelings here (erm, someone told me so) .
cheer up!

i felt kinda sad to see everyth end but i am also glad that i didnt drop of planning comm just cos my dad told me to.
if i did, i wldnt have gotten to know the lovely people of scdc!
i will really missmissmiss them if i'm leaving..
in one way or another, all of scdc has become reallyreally special to me. one day w/o a scdc meeting makes me feel as if smth is missing from my usual life.
i've sort of gotten used to e rushing arnd and doing sk work becos the people make it fun!
i feel lost whenever everyth is done and everyone is slacking or leaving early or smth.
hahaha, see how much scdc has interrupted my life?
but its in a gd way.
i love my friends loads!! and the seniors as well!!

right.
the tree has someone else in mind.
hahahah. or not.

4 more days and counting.



to me, the day you said gdbye and the day i'd leave this town, is the end of every thing we know as it is.